Our stories do sound very similar, for I do also come from a family of foodies, who are non Ds as well. Thankfully my sister has tried to make me as healthy as possible and I do say, I eat pretty healthy when I'm not binging. It is hard and I have to learn to accept the fact that it is. I often tend to underestimate the gravity of my situation which has caused me to go into the hospital twice, but as I've said before, I am going to actually do something about it....and I am glad I came on here because it helps a lot to talk to people who not only have binged or what not but also have diabetes.
Thanks a lot for this, and I probably will be messaging you because I need to overcome this. :)
WHOA! Calm down. No jk, I know, I know. I just read a lot and get scared but I have to come to terms that my binging wont stop unless I control my sugars first, because that is my life.
My goal by the end of 2013 is to lower my A1C level. This is something I have told everyone I know, so I know I can do this. And it goes hand in hand with overeating or binging because when I eat healthy and my sugars are normal, I am really happy and proud of myself, so I can do this, but thank you for the reality check. It's true...>.<
I'm good with insulin now, I'm on this free insulin program for a year which is great, it's the R & N which isn't what I was using before but I am a college student and don't make enough money to be picky right now with what I can get. I also exercise everyday, and as I've said before, I eat healthy when I don't binge so I am pretty sure I can do this, I just have to be patient with myself and not try to do everything at once (it's true I do this, and then get frustrated & give up). Thank you again for your advice.
That is true, I keep my future in my head. I want to do anthropology and actually want to start a non-profit for Diabetics if I can in these similar situations, not only for people with eating disorders but also people who can't afford insulin. I find it ridiculous how hard it is to get something that people need. Also educate people about diabetes and the complications and get them to make right choices and exercise to avoid such things. I know the struggle of diabetes and I want to be able to help people out which is why I want to overcome this and be a stronger individual because of this.
I confuse the fact that my weight shouldn't be my priority right now, and I shouldn't care what people think. My number one priority is controlling my diabetes, and I feel that when I do, my weight will be good too. Thank you, btw. :) You guys are all awesome for helping me out and talking to me and giving me the reality check and boost I need.
Well, I'd strongly urge you to check out the Humalog free trial. 5 300U Humalog pens, worth about $650 in the US. All you need is a doctor to give you a prescription, then go here to print out the coupon. Take to the pharmacy to "pay" for the box of pens. I've done it, so unbelievable as this seems, it's real.
As a T1, you're probably not bolusing more than 7-15U a day. One pen could last nearly a month.
Sanofi has a different, but very generous offer for Lantus.
One thing that helps me is to separate my problems. I have problems with bingeing (not so much lately, fortunately.) So when I do binge, I look at what I am eating/what I ate squarely in the face. Yes, I just finished off 2/3 of a box of Cheese-its. So what are the carbs? Maybe 140? Ouch! But, I take the insulin to cover it. (Sometimes I have to override my maximum bolus to do it.) See, the taking of insulin and the binge eating are separate issues. And funny thing is, it seems that I don't binge as much anymore when I look at what I am doing or have done honestly and bluntly. Before, I would fudge (always down) and wind up with super high BG's.
Funny thing is, I find that this approach helps me not to binge so much.
and actually, the higher the blood sugars, the more you'll be hungry and crave sweets. the more 'normal' your blood sugars get the less of the binging, i would imainge, you'll seek.
Although I have not suffered with eating disorders or binge eating etc. I do feel also afraid to take insulin at times to a degree because I never really know what will happen since I fluctuate around a lot- there is always that fear, will I suddenly drop low? But I think you know your a1c is way too high and you're going to get complications at those high bg. So I think seeing a counselor who can give you regular support is the best way to help now and also joining a support group to help with all of these issues. It think having D and having an eating disorder is a double wammy so so speak because there are so many things that affect what were our normal eating patterns when we have to inject insulin to eat. You will have lots of support here from people with experience with this and who will discuss how they worked on these issues.. wishing you good luck to start getting healthier and feeling better about things :)