I was dxd 4 yrs ago T2, then about 2 yrs ago with LADA. I have been on insulin for two years, the last 15 months or so on omnipod.
Here's the deal. I don't know what my problem is, but I can't seem to CONTROL this thing! I forget to test, forget to bolus, eat wrong things -- all as if it won't REALLY make any difference. I *know* this isn't true, but I think somehow in my heart of hearts I am not *believing* this. I think at the base of my problem is that I don't really believe anything is going to particularly WORK, as I frequently have different results with the same situations. I know this isn't news to anyone reading this.
I have had spells where I have done really well, but I sit amazed when I read all the diabetics on TuD that control their diabetes consistently.
I need to FIX this before I start having real trouble. I've gained quite a bit of weight, have developed plantar fasciitis, and no other big symptoms as far as I know. My A1Cs have been in the high 7s for the last year.
Is there someone out there with a great locker room speech, or know of a great book that speaks to motivation or success or something? Over the next eight months my oldest daughter and her husband are having our first grandchild, my second daughter is getting married, my older son is graduating high school and heading to college, and there are two more kids after that keeping me hopping! I cannot just fade to black, and I feel like that is what is happenning.
REALLY, I am trying not to whine, and I know this is my fault, but my head is kind of swimming at this point and I would love a fresh input of encouragement. Have any of you kind of FINALLY gotten with the program somehow? How'd you do it and how did you stick with it?
OK, maybe I am whining, but I really want to make some changes!