I was doing ok for awhile. a1c around 6.3 or so, had my pump, rockin the cgm too... then I lost my job last year. And my insurance. Then I ran out of sensors. Then I woke up to what was essentially the realization that I was in a very toxic relationship and needed to get OUT immediately. After 8 years of that, i packed up everything i could and moved out, filed for divorce. The immediate stress relief dropped my insulin needs by 20-30% instantly. I had to readjust all my basal settings, I felt like a huge weight was suddenly gone. But then of course, came my old friend depression. Now I live alone, more or less, no job, no insurance, no friends. Terrified of lows now, i tend to trend higher and higher. Sadly my last a1c was 9%, a huge disappointment for myself, and i'm not feeling sorry really, i mean i know it's bad, i am mostly just upset at myself for not being able to pull out of this funk. so there it is. of course that's the super abbreviated short version, heh. Tell me a funny story. I need a laugh.
Sorry to hear you're having a tough time. I've found myself at similar low points in my life. My BG has stabilized in recent years, so I'm not as worried about hypos.
When I was, my strategy was to have a roommate. If you along with them, it can cheer you up, and if you go into shock they can get help. If you hate them, it's a good incentive to get out of the house.
Being upset with yourself doesn't help - I'm fighting exactly that right now, but you know that. The usual one tiny step at a time applies - you know what needs to change, just don't try to 'fix' it all at once. One little thing, then another, then... So sorry you're feeling like ____ (fill in the blank with whatever suits).
A laugh, eh. I've been looking for an opportunity to drag this fellow out again. I blame him for any and every unexplained D-related issue :)
pup and sam both have good ideas.
hi Bob, here's my favorite picture
http://www.tudiabetes.org/photo/the-optimist-hamster-says-1
and let me know if you would like some links for job searching. my very good friend is in the careers industry and is really up-to-date on what it takes these days. I know all the websites that are most helpful.
I'm so glad you are here with us. My husband and I have been struggling too the past 2 years and sometimes I think I'd be completely mental if I didn't have mt Tu friends.
oh I just remembered, this Thursday the live chat is with a diabetic comedian, please join us! we always have fun at these events
http://www.tudiabetes.org/events/conversation-with-comedian-and-person-with-diabetes-chelcie-rice
Perspective is everything. Find something to be grateful for. Like getting out of the toxic relationship. I always try to live by the right job will come at the right time. 1995 to 2006, I was alone and left the toxic relationship in 1995. In 2006 I met the woman of my dreams, married her that year and we’ve been a very happy family ever since. Not all days have been bright and cheery, but I’m happy. You’ll find someone when the time is right and when you least expect it. We met on Match.com and we just clicked. Right when I was ready to give up the search.
None of this helps when you’re down though, because down sucks in a big way. Been there too many times to count. But it does get better. :).