Ahhh Katie, I am so sorry that you have been stuck with this disease and are suffering burnout. You are at an age when having to control this disease is very difficult and makes you different from others who don’t have to put all of this work in. But I know that you realize the consequences you will have to pay if you continue to not respect this illness.
It sometimes helps me to realize how much worse some people suffer with other much worse illnesses. At least with diabetes we can choose to do anything we want to do with our lives. Yes, we have to work harder, but we still can succeed. Other people, with more difficult illnesses aren’t that lucky.
Wearing a Dexcom CGM again can really help you. My a1c isn’t any lower with it, but my time in range is now excellent. I find it really convenient.
Katie, I was diagnosed at 8, so just a little older than you were.
I wasn’t in control until I was 30, and I paid a price for that. Unfortunately diabetes can be very unforgiving. I have worked very hard since I was 30 controlling this illness and I am now 70. Believe me it is worth the effort to not get complications. Life is still good. Sometimes I still resent having diabetes, but hey, I am stuck with it. My life has been good and I am very proud of the way I have lived with this disease.
I have always just used MDI’s and my control is as good as it gets. I don’t mind insulin injections at all, I have never wanted to wear a pump. I also like the simplicity of injections. Some people love their pumps and that is wonderful for them. Just do what feels the best to you. My control at night is as good as it is during the day which is excellent.
Katie, I hope that you feel better and more motivated soon. You are stuck with having diabetes, so I hope that you will soon want to take care of yourself. Please let us know what we can do to help you.