I have an appointment with my new endocrinologist tomorrow. I am feeling somewhat nervous. My last endo was alright in the beginning, but I started to feel increasingly uneasy around her. Then when issues arose from a mishap on her part and the front desk admins, things became rocky. The full story is in another blog, so I’ll leave that out here. Anyway, this has made me skittish. I hope that in making the decision to change endos I don’t end up getting someone who is worse. I haven’t had a good track record with the first doc who missed my diabetes and then this last one that went downhill.
Of course it also seems that my luck before my appointment is nil. I was hoping to have the usual stuff going on before my appointment so my numbers would be reflecting what has been going on the last few months. But since last Friday my daughter has been sick with a fever, sore throat and a rash. We had a day of reprieve in Monday. So it has been almost week of interrupted sleep, caring for my daughter, and occupying my bored son. And yesterday I can see my numbers heading down…not low, but on the cusp which means I am exhausted.
So I am almost certain that when the doc sees me…an already thin person to begin with…I will also have the dark circles and pale complexion that will probably make him question whether I am anorexic, bulimic, or some other disorder. It’s something I have had to deal with my entire life and it is just tiresome. I wish I could just skip that part. I am just small. I am always just a little bit anxious to see my A1c anyway, but this just adds to the worry.
As a side note, since my daughter is ill, my kids had taken over the T.V. So I have been exploring this website a lot the last couple of days. It is such and invaluable place.
Best of luck with the new endo. Go in thinking positive. Ask your questions with confidence, hold your head high and the endo will believe if she/he asks why you look at little worn exactly what you have been dealing with the last week or so.
Stay positive. I understand how you feel. I just changed endo’s and it’s a BIG deal! I haven’t seen my new one yet either and am anxious to see my A1C as well. Let us know how it goes!
Thank you both. I know that I shouldn’t let it get to me and be more sure. Sometimes when you talk about all of the things going wrong it feels like bearing your sins and soul. Plus, the new endo is at the same diabetes center as my old endo. Could make for an uncomfortable run-in.
So it took me 4 doctors to get to “the right Endo team” when I was diagnosed 15 years ago. I’m also small so I used to love the “lose weight if your diabetic” thing in the beginning. Anyway, you are who you are. Be proud of your size and stand your ground if you get crap about your weight. And keep going until you have THE RIGHT TEAM FOR YOU.
On another note, I recently went on the OmniPod. I went to the doctors office near my work instead of my usual one. Needless to say, its been rough, the dude didn’t communicate well at all and I feel like I’ve been own during this Pod transition. Its a BIG DEAL for me. It’s EMOTIONAL. So, 15 years into this disease I’ve given this doctor feedback on how I feel he didn’t quite help me like I needed by setting expectations and training me well and telling me what to do if things were rocky starting on the pump. It’s my body we are dealing with here.
Dana and Lorraine, thank you for the well wishes. My daughter is feeling much much better now. This girl is such a trooper. And my appointment went well also. I am going to write another blog about it. Writing here is very cathartic for me. And Dana, I feel the same way you do about giving my endo feedback. I did that with my last one and that is what got me in trouble with her and why I changed.
Anyway, you are who you are. Be proud of your size and stand your ground if you get crap about your weight. And keep going until you have THE RIGHT TEAM FOR YOU.