I finally went to Soak City today. Me, Jimmy and my 2 cousins went together, it was great fun. We went on every attraction, some were scary for me. I don’t like heights, and for some looking down made me dizzy. After we got inside, my cousins disappeared, so me and Jimmy were alone together the whole day. The only time I saw my cousins was when they came begging for money to buy food. They spent all their money on sodas and snacks. Jimmy got stuck buying them lunch because I was almost broke.
The first ride we went on was the Pacific Spin, a four person raft ride from way up high. I was so scared I was holding on to Jimmy for dear life, the whole way down. After that I got used to it and by the time we left I could go down the big slide without screaming.
Everything there is so expensive. It costs $26 each just to get in then we had to rent a locker to keep our clothes and my diabetes bag in. Then they get you for the food, they don’t let you bring any food in so you have to buy theirs. For 2 people to go there, better count on $150, not that much for some, but I’m a frugal person and I budget my money.
For the first few rides I tested after each one, just in case the stress/excitement caused my BG to wander, they were fine every time. I only ate a salad and 4 bottles of water all day so I didn’t even have to inject a bolus. On the way home, I was hungry and I wish my cousins weren’t with us so we could have stopped somewhere like Jimmy’s house or a restaurant. When i got home I ate half a bowl of rice and a whole block of tofu.
Tomorrow we’re going for a drive to the mountains, a place called Julian. Jimmy says there is a great fried chicken restaurant there. Then we’re going to drive down into the desert and go back through El Cajon. He wanted to stop at an Indian casino but he don’t think they would let me in because I’m not 21, I would like to try my luck at a slot machine.
Sounds like fun! Wow, that is expensive! Glad you had a good time! I don’t like heights either!
glad you had a good time, mine are at a end for a while, you guys make sure to have fun and enjoy the summer.
Domo - what happened to end your good times? Is D getting u down?
hubby is deployed, and diabetes is insulin or the last thing on my mind unfortunately. Trying to think…should i go work out in the morning or not… only half of me wants to go the other half wants to sleep all day. Slots can be fun, i kinda got addicted to it (not in a spend all my money way, but i wasted alot of money) i won big once and was able to buy a laptop. Think that was a once in a while win lol
Domo - Sorry to hear abut your hubby, I hope he gets home soon.
Slots was fun at first, I won $20 almost at the start, 2 hours later I had lost all my money. Jimmy said it is a good think I lost because if I had been winners, I might get hooked.
He’s right when you go to slots you should always expect to lose, and always gave a set amount you play with. It’s for fun that’s all. I’m glad you guys are having fun, seriously go to Dave busters.
I played slots a few times and a won very little but than lost the whole $30 that I started at. I kept thinking about what else I could have done with that $30 and I was mad and that turned me off of gambling! 
I guess I am too practical for it. Of course, my friend on the next machine had coins pouring out on her and than when we switched machines, her winning machine didn’t like me and took all my money. grrr…
But yeah, if you win, it is always fun. But I rarely win anything. Yes, don’t get hooked or addicted to it. You always lose something in the end.
When I won as soon as I started playing, I thought it was sure to happen again. After that, I won $5 a few times but kept losing until I was wiped out. I’m usually very stingy with my money, I must have had a case of gambling fever. I do want to go back to the casino, but not to play the slots. I want to play bingo.
We’re going to the China Chef in La Jolla for dinner later. I’ve been trying to educate Jimmy on what I “should” be eating. If they have it, I like Mandarin chicken without the sauce, it is very low carb. That and some woked mixed veggies and I’ll have a tasty/healthy meal.
I’ve been to Dave and Busters, it’s down by the stadium. I went after a ball game and it was packed. We’ll have to go there on a day when there’s no game.
I don’t understand my BF. We were sitting in a booth after we ordered dinner and holding hands. I pulled his hand over so it was on my thigh and he almost jumped out of his skin. I’m beginning to think he is afraid of touching me or possible he is gay. I just don’t know what to think.
Honestly I would flat out ask what’s wrong, show him how donfused and bothered or hurt you are about itdid you guys exchange cell phone numbers or emails. Sometimes asking that way can be easier.
Yeah, I agree with Domo - you are just gonna have to ask now. I don’t think he is gay as he kissed you but something else is up.
i hope you figure it out! Boys are so funny sometimes. Just remember they usually say what they mean, open up and just see what he says. I would do it in a funny way, cuz that’s my style… try not to put him in corner… that’s why i like text messaging i can let out how i really feel.
All the guys I’ve dated before were the type that went for it right from the start. I’ve never met anyone like Jimmy, maybe that’s why I like him so much. It’s just possible he don’t believe in fooling around before marriage. I heard there are guys like that but he’d be the first one I’ve met.
I like him a lot but I’m not sure I’m ready to marry him or anyone else until I finish school. I love being with him, I miss him when we’re apart, we have fun together but I want more then he seems willing to give. Yes I’m confused about him and more confused about my own feelings.
He calls me all the time, every morning before he goes to work and in the evening when he get home but he never wants to talk about sex or anything intimate. If I bring it up, he changes the subject. I’ve considered telling him I’m not a virgin and that I can’t have children, but I’m afraid he’ll hate me.
Why can’t you have children? Because of the D? Did he say he wants kids? If he likes you enough, he won’t care. You can always adopt.
You just started dating him though. I know it is hard but don’t get all rushy. I think all girls do this - evaluate whether or not he could be the one because they like him so much at the start. (I do this! LOL)
That is so weird that he won’t talk about sex ususally you can’t shut the guys up about that stuff. I’ll bet anything that he is a virgin. Did you ask him about the religion thing yet? I wonder if he is one of those new “purity” types - no sex until marriage. I saw a thing on TV about it. I think it is bit creepy.
Next time you bring it up and he changes the subject, call him on it. Tell him you want to clear it up because you are confused of where you stand and it is making you unhappy.
Kimberly - No, not because of D, after I was raped and beaten, the doctors told me the only way I could have children is through IVF.
I’m afraid to tell him these things but I know it would be better to tell him now than later. I get a sick feeling when I think about losing him. If he is a purity type or a virgin, he might not like me after he learns the truth.
Aw, so sorry that happened to you! hugs I am sure he will be understanding about that - he is a cop after all. He will not see it as your fault or see you any differently I am sure.
I guess you will have to ask him to find out. Don’t ask him straight out if he is a virgin - he may not like that. I would just start it out addressing what you want physically/romantically for the two of you in the future and ask him how he feels about it the relationship going in that direction. And tell him NOT to change the subject or you will keep bringing it up until you get an answer.
I don’t think you have to tell him about the rape yet (unless you really want too) because some guys will get more sensitive about sex around their girls after knowing that - not because they are not interested in you or turned off but because people who have been raped often have sexual issues after that affect their relationships and he might end up treating you more gingerly. But I would mention it if it comes up and you feel comfortable telling it. He doesn’t have to know everything about you and your past unless it is going to directly effect him.
Talked on phone with BF until midnight. We worked out a lot of things. When I asked him if he loved me, he said he liked me more than he ever liked anyone. I brought it up multiple times, he never used the L word, even though I did several times. I asked him if he has had many girlfriends, he said I was the first steady girlfriend he’s had.
I asked him if he would help me buy a new computer, he agreed to help and help me set it up. Now I have to clean up my room, it’s usually a mess and I don’t want him to think I’m a sloppy housekeeper.
He called me again this morning before work, when we were getting ready to hang up, I said be careful love, he said you too dear. I think I’m reading too much into his actions and words, I do think he loves me but just can’t say it.
Sounds good so far. Did you find out anything about the sex stuff?
Don’t worry about that L word (love not like) - lots of guys can’t say it - doesn’t mean they don’t think it. And it isn’t just a guy thing either - I am girl and I can’t say it either but I think that might be because I have never really been in love. I think if i was I could say it.
He calls you every morning before he goes to work - THAT is not a normal thing that a guy that doesn’t like you would do. Believe me, it is a good thing.
He called me last night, we talked until he had to go to sleep. I still didn’t tell him what I need to because I didn’t know how to tell him. Maybe it’s too early to tell him anyway. I’ll see him Friday, he is taking me to buy a new computer and will help me set it up in my room. Maybe the time will be right and I can tell him then.