I HATE being in bed all alone except for Keli. But, she is a WONDERFUL 8.8 lbs of companionship who has kept me out of the depression more than once! Besides the Big D, I am lucky enough to have chronic pain for the last couple years. Sometimes the drugs don’t work quite as well as they should when they are costing $6.83 each[pill] x 120 of THEM a month and the other bottle full of $6.35 each[pill] x 240 of THEM a month. Sometimes, just lying there with water running from my eyes from the pain that sneaks through. LOTS of days where I get to be up (as in out of bed) for 3 or 4 hours IF I am LUCKY!
Some days, NOT lucky, just up long enough to go whiz a few times. HEY, lately, I HAVE been able to swing my feet over the edge of the bed and WITHIN a FEW seconds walk the 15 feet to the throne.
I AM feeling GREAT when that happens!
I HATE it when I roll over, a few minutes later, SOMETIMES 10-15 minutes later I have been able to get my feet on the floor and THEN, GRAB the TABLE, the WALL, the DRESSER, the DOOR HANDLE, the TOWEL RACK in the bathroom, the SINK COUNTER, the back of the TOILET… all of the time pain noises coming from my mouth because they just sneak out. Sit down on the throne, holding onto the back of the toilet and the sink counter. Ah, a few minutes later, ready to THINK about getting up and CRAWLING alone the WALLS and other THINGS to get back to the bed.
Ah, made it. A SPEEDY 5-7 minutes for a walk that should take 5 seconds, 30 seconds for a whiz and another 5 seconds back to the bed or to some other part of the house. A 40 second operation takes 5-7 minutes when the days aren’t going good.
YES, the big D does NOT seem like it takes a lot of time during my day. The chronic pain is the real day killer.
Some days I just don’t make it to the other end of the house where the kitchen and office is.
Yep, my life is pretty simple when I have days like that, day after day after day.
BUT, I have lots to be happy about, Keli is sleeping next to me right now and I could take a few strokes at her and she would start the tail wagging and purring. But, I leave her alone for right now.
And I still have two arms and two legs, still can see and hear pretty well. The Big D hasn’t really made my life miserable yet, am very thankful for that! Gonna see if I can make it to the kitchen and get something to eat, it IS about 3pm and time to try to make it.
I KNOW a spouse/helpmate would make a BIG difference… ah, maybe someday again.
Life is great!