Sometimes I feel it was better being in the dark


#1

I have been a Type 1 for 40 years and really did not understand diabetes or carbs, or insulin to carb ratios, etc. until about 6 years ago.

The more I learn about diabetes and how it affects every cell in your body when your bgs is elevated or fluctuating between lows and highs, I sometimes feel that I liked it better when I was in the dark.

I feel with tighter control and more knowledge I worry more and this disease has become a more 24/7 burden.

Just a little vent from me.


#2

Absolutely. Tighter control does have its stresses and is hard work. But would you rather be peeing in a cup and getting useless information? And trying to adhere to that ghastly exchange system?
I had many many years of running around doing whatever I wanted, eating whatever I wanted and coasting through periods of very high bg.
About 6 years ago, I was told that I had “massive amounts” of protein in my urine. Well I pulled in the reins and got my AlC down, and my kidney functin has returned to normal. 30 years ago I wouldn’t have had the tools to do that.
I think currents times are particularly hard on parents of T1 kids - the constant monitoring and then feeling guilty when the numbers are off target, wondering how the child’s health will be affected.
Ugh. Anyway you look at it, all the developments have given us chances for better health, but they come at a high price on our part. Non pwd’s have no idea what we go through on a daily basis, and I think we all deserve a big big round of applause (maybe with confetti) for doing so.
Have a good week ahead.


#3

I would have to agree with you on that! The more I’ve found out really the less I want to know. I’ve had it for 43 years and like you back then they knew nothing about it. It really keeps getting scarier the more I learn! Keep your head up it has to get better!