First, don’t get me wrong – for heavens sake take a trip! That’s not what this is about.
This year I discovered that there is no vacation from diabetes. I tried. I tried taking a summer off. Bad idea. I tried to take a week off. Still, a bad idea. Weekend? Nope. Not worth it.
For those of you who can get away with it – I don’t know how you do it. But I found out that I’m diabetic and every day is a diabetic day. If I want to feel good about myself, feel up for the day, be at my best I have to follow my routine. I can’t take a day off testing. I can’t take a day off my eating routine. I can’t just do what I want. When I do I pay for it.
I’m not talking about that occasional item on your plate that you have planned. I’m not talking about – oops, I forgot to test this morning. I’m talking about that day you look in the mirror and say I am so tired of all this, the heck with it. I think I’m normal, I’ve talked to other people who have done it. I have actually gotten to the point that I said why not skip the meds tonight, just go to bed – ENOUGH!
It took one of my students talking with me to really realize what I had been doing. She is on a gluten free diet and we were comparing recipes (her mom makes awesome kale chips!) And we started talking about that daily grind, that daily routine and how some days it wasn’t so easy. And even though she is not diabetic and I’m not on a gluten free diet we understood each other. When I don’t eat right, don’t test, don’t walk, don’t drink my water – I feel wrong, I feel off, I usually get nauseated and its so not worth it. And there she was explaining it to me. She is awesome.
So the next time I look in the mirror and think – VACATION! I’m taking a day off from being diabetic! I remind myself that this is a way of life, a decision to feel my best and there are no vacations. AND if I don’t take a vacation from diabetes, I can manage a trip/vacation and have a great time. The wisdom of a 12 year old – who knew?