Hi Veronica,
Normally, I’ve usually got a joke or two to throw around. This post, however, is gonna be one of my “tough love” posts, so stop reading now or as soon as I really ■■■■ you off… (oops, did a joke)
You know, sometimes it amazes me how little treatment and support recently diagnosed diabetics get from the medical community. One month to see an endo and you are newly diagnosed? wow
Faced with anything serious, people go thru phases. One of those is denial, been there myself. Reading your post, it sounds like that is right where you are. Don’t worry, it is perfectly normal. However, you have to treat your condition a little more rationally than that. I know, it’s harsh, it sucks to hear, but unfortunately, from what you’ve written you need to do it. The consequences if you don’t will probably be trips to the ER, hell you may get to know them all by name!
What is a normal meal? How many carbs? If I eat a “normal” meal of a sandwich and a bag of chips and not take insulin I will be approaching 600 within a couple of hours.
That aside, “new” diabetics often go thru a “honeymoon period” where their insulin requirements decrease for a while. How long? unfortunately, it varies. That 108 is a good fasting number. However, you want your sugars to be in that range all day long, not just when you wake up. Right now, it might take less insulin with meals than it did before, but it will still take insulin to keep your sugars down. The ADA recommends sugars less than 140, but most of us here, anyway, shoot for numbers closer to 100.
You need to check your sugars, keep track of them and what you eat. You will soon be able to look at a plate of food and “know” how many carbs are there, but you need experience to be able to do that. IT WILL COME, but you have to work for it.
And, we have all been right where you are. Folks here at tudiabetes are great at understanding and offering their experiences and support. Being diabetic is a uniquely personal experience. Everyone is different at how their body’s are affected by diabetes, insulin and just day-to-day living. However, despite the way our bodies react, we still have the same condition and other people’s experiences WILL help you, if you take the time to learn from them.
now for the love part. I was diagnosed at age 7 in 1970. We have one member that has posted here who has been diabetic for 62 years. Another is 91 years old. There are a ton of folks here who may have been diabetic longer than you have been alive. You can do this. It won’t be easy, but if you let your family, friends and maybe us help, you can do it. You can do it all by yourself, but it is a lot harder, I speak from experience on that one. I’ve was mostly self managed for the last 39 years (it sucks btw).
So please take your insulin. Watch your sugars to make sure you take enough and watch your sugars to make sure you don’t take too much until you get the “feel” for things. Don’t worry if you get stressed, if somedays things just don’t work like they should (I call those my “WTF” days).
I know this post may have been a little more reality than you wanted, so feel free to tell me to shut up (my kids do when I’m being stupid).