Shank, I am you and you are me.
4 months ago.
Here's what I speculate is going on, and because of social pressures, you probably haven't been willing to be totally up-front about it: Your doctor has told you what you need to do, you've talked to others too and know yourself, but you just can't do it.
You can't keep up with the physical activity demanded. You can't restrict your diet as necessary to get this under control with diet/exercise/pills. You feel like crap, and when you do, eating is a source of comfort, especially "comfort foods".
In short, you can not control and manage your diabetes with diet/excercise/meds. Yes, in theory you could, but you can't.
In short, you need to start managing your condition with insulin. Nirvana is getting a pump and CGM -- to a T2 at your stage of the game, this looks and feels like failure, like you're acknowleging enfeeblement, etc.
Let me tell you from personal experience, NOTHING COULD BE FURTHER FROM THE TRUTH!!!
Insulin will give you control over your condition. First and foremost, it's vital you get your BG under control, and maintain it in control. You are failing with the standard T2 treatment approach -- it doesn't work for you. It didn't for me either.
If you were diagnosed 2 years ago, it's almost certain your actually been diabetic for more like 5-10 years, but your pancreas was able to meet the elevated insulin needs to keep your BG normal. It finally got exhausted, and the other pathologies of the disease (chiefly insulin resistance) progressed to the point control was no longer possible.
I went on the Omnipod pump, and G4 CGM 3 months ago, and it has been the most liberating experience ever in my life. Far from being more "frail", "feeble", "sickly", etc. -- all the emotional responses we have to such a thing -- it was like slapping on a human supercharger.
I'm 51, and in terms of my energy, mental sharpness, apetite, mood -- basically, everything, it literally took 15 years off my age.
I started with injections a month before the pump. All the benefits listed above started then -- not with the pump. It's just that the pump made insulin adminstration/management extremely easy and convenient.
So, given what you've described, my advice to you is the only solution is to get going on insulin. Talk to your doctor about it. Start with injections, see if you can handle that and the record-keeping. Then, when you've got that down, push hard to get a pump.
There are a handful of T2's here like me on insulin pumps, and they'll all pretty much sing the same song I am.
Best of luck!