i’m back on the bandwagon after being off of it for some time. i’m being treated with actosplus! (it needs an exclaimation point!), lantus, and humalog. oh and diet and exercise, of course. i take a boatload of insulin – 250 units of lantus daily and a sliding scale of humalog 6/9/12/15 units depending upon my reading. i test about eight to ten times per day. i’m a bit of a fanatic about trying to get things under control.
well, i had my first low in a year the other night. 31. i ate 15 grams of glucose tablets and waited 15 minutes as i’m told to do. in the meantime, i shivered and sweated and felt dizzy and scared. it was 42 after 15 minutes so, of course, i overcompensated. i took 30 grams this time, thinking it would raise it about 20 points this time, and i ate a big bowl of cheerios with soymilk. i felt much better. but my blood sugar was 220.
i can’t win! this happened again last night. it was 45 and i did the right things and it seemed to not want to go up. i nearly went to the er. but i’m a type 2, right, i can handle this stuff! right?
and then my diabetic nurse tells me to test for ketones if i’m over 250 for a few readings in a row. i haven’t found any ketones yet, but i test faithfully when the circumstances call for it. she also told me i should have a whattacallit kit. glycagon. both of these i’ve read only type 1’s need to worry about. is that true or is she right? i’ll ask my np about both tomorrow at my appointment.
additionally, my np and diabetic nurse both want me to get on the pump. i want to get on the pump. i wish somebody would start the process of getting me on the pump. but my np isn’t comfortable doing it, so she wants to refer me to an endocrinologist first.
i’m so eager to get things under control now that i am a believer in good control again. i’m very impatient! anybody else feel this way? anybody else confused by what they are reading about type 2 and stuff like ketones, etc.?
should i feel this frustrated and confused? i guess i’m asking – am i normal?
i get nervous about showing my readings to my np. i am a basketcase before an a1c. my last one was 11.4. yikes. i’m sure the next one will be much better, but i’m still sick to my stomach thinking about it.
i do have a psychotherapist lined up, which should help some. to have that outlet. i also journal about it and i’ve started a blog, too.
what sorts of emotions/feelings are you having or did you have as you went on the journey toward better control of your blood sugar?