I wrote this for my older brother, Joshua Caleb we were just 14 months apart and were reffered to as twins by most. He was diagnosed with type 1 when he was 11, and he passed away last febuary from ARDS and hypoglycemia due to medical malpractice while in the hospital being treated for pneumonia. His death has made a huge impact on my life, and I miss him more everyday. It has taken this long to forgive myself and to let go of guilt, but he is in a better place not suffering from down syndrome, hypothyroidism or diabetes any longer. He was the best big brother I could asked for, and I will always miss him
In Loving Memory 3.29.91-2.9.09
From day one, without knowing it. I loved you with all my heart.
As i grew older I looked up to you and to no other.
Yes, we fought many of times, but you supported me in everything i did.
You were my best friend and my hero.
At night i miss the sound of your music.
I miss your comfort and the way you made me feel safe.
I miss our nonsense arguements and all our wrestling matches just to pass time.
I like to remember our times together, good times and bad.
I regret the times i yelled at you when you were only trying to help.
But you know i only did it, because you did it to me.
I wanted to everything you did,
because i wanted to be JUST like you!
I miss your smile,
and I miss the way your room smelt of your cologne.
But most of all, I miss your reassuring hugs and playful kisses.
I wish i could go back and tell you how i felt, tell you that i really need you no matter what i said.
I will always love you, no matter how long it's been,
since the day your life came to an end.
I miss my big brother,
and will to the very end.