I've been toying with having a baby, but could not commit to the decision out of fear of 10 million things. I knew my partner wanted one. I wanted one, but, well....the fear.
Recently, we thought we were pregnant. And for those glorious days...I was nervous, but I was more excited and happy than anything. Something in the back of my mind said that I wasn't, but I enjoyed the time I had...and we talked about going ahead and trying if I wasn't.
Well, I wasn't. BUT....we are trying!!!! I have a consultation with a high risk ob/gyn on the 28th. My A1C has hung between 5.8-6.4 (6.4 most recent...I'm getting back on tighter track). I am happy and excited...and really nervous because I was crushed when started this month...I wasn't expecting to feel so emotional over not being pregnant when we weren't trying. Also, I am worried that I might have trouble getting pregnant.
I'm reading everything I can get my hands on (books on fertility AND pregnancy w/ diabetes). But sometimes all that info makes me more scared than anything because of the chance that it will not happen. But my toes are in the water now....maybe the water's even up to my knees right now...I'm not sure. :)
So---I'm welcoming myself to the tribe of women here who have braved this before me...and who continue to support and nurture each other...because that is what we do as women. :) I attribute a lot of my recent success with my D to this site....so I'd love to add a successful pregnancy to that list of thank you's I owe all of you! :)
So, in short...Hello! :)