I think it has been well-established that I'm a patient of many different fields. I have some odd form of blood sugar issue that I've termed diabetes and my endo still likes to call "impaired glucose tolerance," which we all know is the same thing. I have so many allergies, some of which are severe, that I think my entire med school class of nearly 200 knows who I am. I have a rheumatologic issue that's currently undiagnosed but which my rheum insists is either fibromyalgia or undifferentiated connective tissue disorder, both of which are diagnoses of exclusion. I also have some other smaller issues, like sinus tachycardia and migraines. In other words, I'm a mess.
I'm usually excellent about diabetes management. I eat well, I test between 5 and 10 times per day, depending on what I'm eating and what trends I've been seeing, I take my meds. I exercise. My A1c's are awesome, though that's probably because I insisted on meds so early.
But for the last month and a half, I couldn't care less about diabetes. I had a rheumatologist appt, and then I had some other stuff happen within that area, and then I fell apart. I'm so tired of being the patient, and I'm so tired of managing multiple chronic conditions that don't get along with each-other, and I'm so tired of not feeling well and being different...and my diabetes management suffered. I think I tested this morning...and that is probably the only morning I've tested this week or last. If I've tested at all it's once or twice a day, and that's just random throughout the day and has nothing to do with when I'm eating or not. I haven't been eating terribly...but I haven't been eating well, either. I have no idea what my BG's have looked like in the last month and a half. I'm not even sure if I've been high during that time, because the highest BG I saw was 138. (I have very bad post-meal responses but otherwise normal glucose, which is why that 138 means exactly nothing.)
I just started exercising again this week for the first time in more than three months--at first because of an injury, but then because I hate exercise and just didn't want to. And even now, I'm exercising more for the rheumatologic issues than for diabetes.
I've had burnout before, usually because my BG is crap and even then only after it improves. It's never lasted for so long, and it's never been this "I can't care anymore" feeling, more of an "I need a break."
I'm not really sure what to do. I'm also seeing a new endo at the beginning of March, and I don't really know what to tell her. (I'm keeping my old one that I love so much, just consulting with this new one because she's a leader in the field and one of my teachers really pushed me to meet her.) I don't want to see another doctor, and I don't want to be the patient again. I'm usually very open with my doctors and am willing to tell them everything and smile and nod when they freak out that I'm so young and dealing with so much, but I don't think I'll be able to do that with her. I just don't want to deal with any of this anymore. I'm so tired of dealing with other health issues that the only one that really takes time and consideration, as well as the only one that can do any real damage (short of anaphylaxis), is suffering.
Has anyone ever had diabetes burnout that wasn't caused by diabetes? How do you get yourself out of the burnout phase and into a place where you can be productive again?