I feel panic sometimes in situations I feel might get out of control. When I am alone and have a reading of 2 that is not coming up and I'm feeling dizzy, or a reading of 25 that is not coming down and I'm feeling sick, then I start to feel freaked out.
I used to worry about complications a lot. I pretty much NEVER have a day where I have stable readings all day. A "good" day for me is about 50% or 75% of readings in range. I don't know why this is, but it just is, no matter what I do. I used to freak out every time I read articles about super strict control and how if I go high at ALL I am killing myself and so on. But then I experienced a bunch of health issues not related to diabetes, and close family members did as well, and I decided it wasn't worth the stress.
I do the best I can every day and I can't really control what happens in the future. I could spend my life in a little room controlling all variables and still come down with some horrible disease. I have spent my entire life dealing with various (for the most part completely unrelated) health issues of varying severity and with varying degrees of effect on my daily life. My parents are some of the healthiest people I know, have no history of major health problems, and within the past two years each has faced major health issues (which they are thankfully now recovered/recovering from).
Whether it's a diabetes complication or a completely unrelated health problem, I know I will deal with whatever comes along when it comes alone. In the meantime, it's not worth worrying over, so I usually don't (although I know that's way easier said than done sometimes!).