It seems like when everything in life is thrown in your face, and you just cant take it anymore, you really seem to find out just how much friends help...
In the past 3 months everything has been a crazy blur of emotions. Life was already pretty hectic, pretty out of this world. And then all of a sudden, hey guy! you're a diabetic, and you get to poke yourself with lil needles everyday. Forever. Thats really taken a toll on me. It seems like I just want to crawl under a rock and do nothing. especially all the weird feelings getting adjusted to this disease, and medication..and carb counting, blah blah
But lately, I seemed to have given up almost, stopped logging my numbers, started skipping injections, meals..going a few days without even testing my BG. kinda just gave up on being diabetic for a bit there. and then through some good advice of a few friends, realized that to hell with the pain, and being all sad and down about this. The pain'll stop, it'll all even out, and before ya know, you'll be feelin better is what I'm told. And really I didnt believe it. I'm not used to the pain, or just not feeling right. I remember just 3 months ago being this hard working, super active guy. goin to gigs, parties, doin all the bad stuff you love to do at 22yrs old! and then... Diabetes...
And now its like, I felt some diseased creature that was just told the fun was over. But at least its good to know that people care. And they're right too, its just me. If I want to still have fun, I can.. to hell with the pain, ignore it...
Live life, and dont worry about all the stress. Well its time to do just that... Its friends like that you cant really find anymore that just sorta need to say the right combo of words to hit you right.
Things seem to be looking better already, I was doing great with the diabetes, now its time to pick myself back up..grit them teeth, and live.....
This website has got to honestly be one of the best place I've been to on the net. It seems like when things are just not worth it. I come here, and can find some way to feel better
Thanks TuD.org, and a big thanks to a few select people here whom I've actually talked to/met.
You've got no idea how much your freindship has been worth it.
--Johnny Crouton