It's hard to write about the sucky aspects of diabetes when things are going good:) I can proudly say, that the last 3 months are going well, bs control is in check, new tools to control both T1 and T2 are still working (knowing damn well that can all change in a heart beat.) Craig made a comment to me the other day that I have been very "feisty" these last couple weeks, and I must agree him, but why? So I started pondering on that statement. When a T1 gets glimpses of feeling good, and possible longevity, that feeling is so over powering that I want to change the world in a day! because who knows when that will all change and force you to change your health game plan, again. One of the many faces of this disease, is the ongoing changing moods of the disease itself. Some days it feels like it's got a death grip on you and other days you feel like the rolls have reversed and you have a good grip on diabetes. Unlike cancer, which makes you deal w/ it upfront and now, diabetes weens and wanes, some days are better then others, While enjoying my good roll with diabetes, the devastating news was delivered that a fellow T1 lost his life at a tender young age of 22, the guilt was overwhelming. Why him and not me? I never knew the gentlemen personally, but I still quietly cried and prayed for him. 1 in 20 diabetics will die from lows, age doesn't matter. I must admit, beating off the depression that accompanies diabetes is sometimes just as much of a battle as fighting the disease itself. Especially when you are strong willed and bull headed as me. I grew up in a diplomatic household, no one showed fear or weakness. Every time when I hear that saying "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" I chuckle, and think "Damn straight!" So when an idiot tries to tell you how to live your life, or what your doing wrong that is making your diabetes worse, if only in your head, tell them to go jump in the lake (not what i really wanted to type but trying to keep it clean.) instead listen to your body, look for support from others who are battling this disease with you, listen to the right doctors and professionals, educate, educate, educate yourself, surround yourself with kind souls. You can make a positive difference in your health and in the attitude of others. Truly enjoy your good times and keep fighting that daily fight.
