That’s good! I’m always very glad to hear that!! There’s a lot of good stuff in your thread and we would certainly msis your input.
It’s great to hear from you Sagwabetes 
Good for you. I certainly would miss you.
Maurie
I second that. I’ve been anxiously waiting to hear from you to know you’re OK.
I’ve had that feeling before. Especially when I was in multiple insulin shock comas and mulitple ketoacidosis over a few months time.
Or when I was in my first trimester of pregnancy and went through 7 insulin shock comas during those 3 months that my husband woke me up from. I surely felt like a burden then. I would wake up in his arms and he’d be reading a book outloud to me. Probably more for his own comfort because he had been waiting for 2-3 hours for me to wake up after pumping me full of cake frosting and testing my BG every 20 minutes. He LOVES me. And I know that if I weren’t here, he would feel completely empty.
I’m afraid that I won’t be a good mother because of my Type 1. I’m afraid that I won’t be able to care for her in the way that she needs me to because maybe I’ll have roller coaster BG again for a few months. But I deserve to try. I deserve to keep fighting. It’s hard. I break down and cry some days. But mostly, I paste that smile on my face because overall I AM happy to be here. I am happy every day that I wake up. I am happy every single hug that I give / get. I am happy every deep breath I take, inhaling the fresh air outside.
There are always ways to look at anything in this life with negative light. Definitely always going to have negative things happen to us. But, overall, it’s a great thing to be here and to make a difference.
Look at it this way, if it weren’t for your Type 1 diabetes, would you want to be your own friend?
I know I’m a pretty cool chick, so my answer is a HELL YES. What’s your answer?
Scott E- well put and very much a great point of view. Very poignant for this discussion.
My dad looked at me a few days ago and said “You are absolutely amazing. I can’t believe how much you’ve taken control of your disease. I can’t believe how strong you are.”
My friend Robyn said a few weeks ago “You inspire me in so many ways. You make me want to be a better person.”
My husband said a few months ago, after waking from an insulin shock coma “My life would be so voided if you were gone.”
I’ve cried before, saying that I was afraid and that I didn’t want to burden them. And every single time, they’ve always responded that it’s never been a burden at all. They are happy to help me and only want to keep me here as long as they possibly can.
Marps Just to answer you about rasing that baby. YOU WILL BE GREAT!!! I raised 2 while my diabetes was here and they got to where they knew what to look for if I had a low. My 3 year old daughter (now 22 almost 23) saw me start convolsing in a low and called 911. Don’t worry you’ll be a GREAT MOM!!!
I’ll 3rd that one! Glad to hear from you!
“Behind my front” LOL
Marps, you said that beautifully. I knew that the girl I married was the one for me after the second time, while dating, I had an overnight emergency-room low, and she took care of me and stuck with me. (Oddly, the first time our parents met each other was when I was in the ER from a hypoglycemic attack!). She constantly asks me to remind her how to use the glucagon kit, just in case. Not that she can practice it or anything!
As far as being a good mother, I think you’ll be fine. There’s an instinct that kicks in. I think when I knew my son was on the way, I was inspired to take better care of myself because he deserves to have a healthy father who will be around for a long time. Though I will admit that there are times when I’ll take care of him and ignore my own low blood sugar.
What a great outlook Marps! It sounds as if your family needs you just as much as you need them. You are so lucky to have them.
When you are your own friend, it is hard to watch your back!
It’s important to keep your weight on the balls of your feet so you can turn rapidly!
Tried using a mirror, but everything was backwards behind me!
Sagwabetes and a few more who posted, you are very brave- Thanks for being you, thanks for sharing, and thanks for realizing that you or whoever in your life has DM is worth all of the effort!
Sag- Besides for these loved ones, you’d have very sad/upset/hurt THOUSANDS of fellow diabetics and family members of diabetics and most of us haven’t met you/ barely know you if you did something stupid/selfish. I’ve lost friends who didn’t reach out after having similar feelings and are no longer with us. That is the true burden and they deserve better than to lose you. Please know your worth, we do!
That’s a good point. Some of the other places I’ve hung around post “view” counts that are generally a lot higher than “reply” counts, often like 10-20x higher? 61 is a pretty busy thread so there’s probably close to 1000 people interested in the situation and valuing your contributions to the group.
Tried stalking myself, but kept breaking the mirror and then had to take a restraining order against myself!
My son had a junior high language teacher who’s son fell of a monument in Barcelona and broke his spine