I was just watching Steel Magnolias which those of you that have seen this movie know its a diabetics nightmare! I have always cried every time I watch it but since I have been diagnosed its soo much harder to watch! To top it off this time while watching my sugar dropped and I am so upset with the Why Me? I get like this alot it seems and I am just curious am I the only one that just “freaks out” for no reason sometimes crying and wanting to scream!?
when I was first diagnosed, oh hell yes!
Crying, being angry, depressed for what seemed like no reason.
I watched an episode of House a year later- and House said something like “It’s not a diabetic’s fault that they don’t make insulin.” and I burst into tears sobbing.
I’m still not quite sure why. It will pass somewhat as you accept that while things are different, not everything has to be.
Ummm Ashlee, no! Definitely not. I am so glad I read your post! I feel the exact same way… I had always heard about the movie Steel Magnolias but had never seen it until about 1 year ago, when I had to watch it for one of my Women’s Studies classes in college and I was a complete wreck. Also it’s weird but my boyfriend notices that I tend to freak out randomly and he’ll always ask “what’s your sugar?” and I hate that because can’t I just feel like this without it being because of my stupid diabetes? But low and behold, most of the time, it’s because my sugar is extremely low or unusually high. I have learned that you just have to let it out sometimes, I cry a lot when I’m depressed about having diabetes, but then I usually start to feel better within like 10-30 minutes and I go for a walk or go for a drive and listen to music really loudly… I will have great days, where I’m okay with this all and it’s very familiar and natural, although I dislike having to test my sugar and give myself shots, and I’m actually thankful for being diagnosed because I feel so much better than I did like the year and a half before I was diagnosed, and I’m so much more healthy and knowledgeable than I ever would have been before, but then there are days when I just don’t want to deal with it at all anymore. I definitely feel like “why me” and F*** it, this isn’t fair. Sorry I don’t have all the answers to help you with but I just had to reply to you because reading your post was amazing because I feel soooo alone with this disease all the time and I was like, “Oh my god, there is someone else out there that feels exactly how I feel!!!” That makes the bad days seem not so bad after all… At least I’m not alone 
Take Care! And the best of luck to you!!!
jessica
Ashley-
Your not alone:) we’ve all been there at least once! I think mines happened when I was first Dx’d I cried and cried some more! I cried even more because my husband was in iraq at the time and he was my support system…I prayed about it and pray even more:) I didn’t get back into the “mode” until I started pumping and I was angry but I prayed posted forums and blogged all on TuD. Guess what…LOL when I started pumping my Husband was away…LOL have u noticed the trend?
Take care
Cherise
You came to the right place. Cry, scream, vent, we know, we understand, we put our arms around you.
Tough show. I saw it as a stage production and everyone in the audience was sniffling towards the end of it.
Be sure to express your feelings, because this is a stinky disease. Even after 36 years it makes me cry at times.
Ohhhhhhhh yeah! When the kids get sick, when the basement starts to flood, when a snow storm hits, when the power goes out, etc, etc, etc, they are away!!! What is with that?
That said, they are away working for the family and wish they could be home, so we don’t blame them…it’s just that it ALWAYS HAPPENS THAT WAY!!!
You are absolutely not the only one!
mine was away for several large earthquakes when we lived in CA, and also for the big F5 tornado when we lived in Oklahoma!
Thanks for all your comments I do feel better now! At least I know im not the only one that this is driving crazy lol
Now that you’re feeling better, maybe I can go into my “count your blessings” routine without you wanting to strike me. That ridiculous Steel Magnolias is as bad for our image as Haley Berry and Wilford Brimley…so out dated. We are so fortunate to be dealing with this in these times, with the technology and resources, like Tudiabetes, that are out there, now. I can think of more than a few things that diabetes is better than dealing with.
Also, (hoping you are older than 21,) most alcohol is carb free or relatively low!
Of course he was.
I feel that way at times I have always before diabetes kept in great shape I would run 5-11 miles a day never thought I would be hit with this curse. But when I feel that I just cant do this anymore my wonderful wife and kids snap me right out of it. They need me and i will do what I need to do to be here for them. Even though my wife might not understand what Im going through when I get in a down mood she tries her best not to bring up the D word. I hate diabetes with a passion but this was the card I was dealt we just have to take it and live or lives the best we can. You are not alone at all Im just glad some guys also shed some tears because of diabetes. Not alot of men will admit to it. Hang in there we have hope of a cure so lets do our best to be around for it when comes. Darryl
yea older than 21 lol and if you want to drink straight alcohol its carb free but I like the sweet stuff!! lol
Strawberries and Minute Maid Light Limeade are a good start to a low carb Margarita or Daiquiri!
mmm I will have to try that
Ashlee … I have been taking insulin for 40 years this past April and it still pisses me off. I don’t do the WHY ME much any longer but I am able to do most of what I would have done if I hadn’t had this cursed disease.
I think most of us get used to it after a while and it becomes a part of your life and sometimes I sit and wonder how non-diabetics actually enjoy going out and partying the way they do that we can’t. Sometimes I even feel that we are luckier than they are as we are forced to take better care of ourselves than they are, we watch what we eat and we’re better off for living healthier than the average Joe or Joanne.
Hang in there, it’ll get better
Hey Ashlee,
Saw Steel Magnolias on TV last week for the first time since I was diagnosed. Questioned myself if I should even watch it, but I did. Guess it was some kind of weird test for myself, or something. Agree with Elaine, way bad for our self-image & outdated.
I’m recently diagnosed–end of May. After the shock abated, I cried. I’d wait until my husband went to sleep, sit in the dark & sob. Fear, confusion, why me, I can’t live like this, I want my old life back–the whole thing. I’d be in the supermarket, reach for something & then realize with a start I couldn’t eat it any more & want to cry right in the middle of the store. Also got tired & annoyed at everyone asking me how I was feeling constantly.
It’s frustrating, it’s a pain, it’s limiting to have to be self-monitoring & self-aware all the time. Who would want this!
I don’t have any particular coping strategies to share. I just don’t want to be one of those mopey, pity party types. I don’t want to be a saint either, not there’s no much chance of this:) I don’t see D as a curse, or a gift. I try to see it as something that just “is”. I strive for acceptance. Can’t say that I’ve accomplished this by a long shot, but I’m trying.
Pernod and Perrier! for the easy ones, good rum with diet coke… and of course single malt scotch. Diabetes caused be to have a better appreciation for the good things.
Even with food, I figure if I have to count the carbs, they had better be carbs worth counting. 8^)
Ivan!
ash girl you and i both know this disease sucks! many times at work we have talked about it. when i first started working there and chuck told me there was another girl that worked there with diabetes i felt a sort of relief. that maybe we could talk and help eachother. and every morning we would go over our sugars ha its crazy how we both got diagnosed around the same time too. its just sad how no one was there to help you. no wonder your so lost and feel so alone you have ■■■■■■ doctors. there are times when i dont care and then my A1C gets to be a 9 and then i get my head in the game and A1C is a 7. there are plenty PLENTY PLENTY of nights i cry myself to sleep thinking why me? no one else in my family has type 1. just my gparents with t2. its definately life changing and would never wish it upon anyone. just know that im here for you!!! and if you ever need to get out of muncie and need an indy kick you know im here we’ll have a diabetic feast! love you girl and keep hanging in there! we’ll get through this together
love b