I hate my diabetes. I really do.
The company I get my pump supplies through never billed me ever in all 2 years. I go to reorder supplies last month and now they say I owe just under $500. I told them they cant let me die and that they will give me my supplies AND send me a bill so I can see what the heck went wrong. They send out the supplies, but no bill.
I get a letter in the mail stating that all balances must be paid in full unless other arrangements have been made before any supplies go out. WHERE IS MY BILL?!?!
so i havent been testing or changing my sites, taking care of myself in general.
went to the endo, 9.2% a1c and I weigh 205 according to their scales (10lbs heavier than mine)
yep i busted into tears. I cant do this anymore. im in the middle of a full blown diabetes burn out crisis and at this point I cant afford to live, let alone be healthy.
I just dont know what to do. my parents told me “well eat less and you’ll be off insulin”… my own parents, Ive been type 1 since i was almost 11… thats just shy of 13 years! Oh wait, thats right, you never wanted anything to do with this because if you dont know about it, your daughter is still “perfect”… well guess what? ■■■■ YOU FOR NEVER BEING THERE FOR ME THROUGH ANY DIABETES EVENT IVE HAD!
I just want this to end so badly right now.