Today I got a visitor. Not one that I was expecting and not one that I like seeing. Today my depression has stopped by for a chat and will probably move in for a bit.
I am at my wits end. I cant stop crying and im angry and annoyed and sad and I dont know what to do. I can’t get back on anti-depressants until June 1st when my insurance kicks in again. Im just floating out here in space hoping the tears and pain stop. My kids are confused cuz their mom keeps crying and yelling. My husband doesnt get it. Im feeling trapped and Im feeling guilty since I feel I should be able to handle being a mom, a wife, a diabetic, have a clean house, keep up with laundry, handle online college. Along with this I have my damn shingles pain still. My left shoulder blade area kills and I can’t take any real pain killers until bed.
My depression sucks. When my depression is in full gear my diabetes sucks. I feel like such a failure at life sometimes.
I dont even want to check my sugar since I know it will be high. i HATE this. Im sorry to post such a pity party but I need to get it out, all of it.