Yeah Diabetic Warrior! You are the master of your heart and mind. You know what you need and what it takes to get it!
Today I went to the pharmacy and for the first time in a long time, I got two vials of insulin without a problem. Often records indicate my insurance is inactive, or the Rx is expired, or the Rx says I only need x amount per month and they won't give me more for the month, when they were not calculating for the amount used to prime my pump tube. Previously the pharmacist has told me, you can wait a few weeks, you don't need insulin that bad. I may have said that before, I might be repeating myself, but anyway I know exactly what you are going through!
Also, today, I got a letter from Medtronic, a bill from a year and 1/2 ago for pump supplies was not paid by insurance, they say the insurance was inactive for that time, (it was not!) They had threatened to send it to collection, ect. I have been going rounds with this for over a year! A few months ago, they would NOT send my pump supplies, until I paid the invoice. Lucky me, got pump supplies from my 'used-to-be D" friend, who got a pancreas transplant and does not need the box of infusion sets and reservoirs, so he gave them to me. That tided me over until I got to the top dog and got supplies sent pending paymt on the invoice. Anyway,,, today, the invoice from a year and 1/2 ago has been 'written-off'. Phew! I must have an angel... a Diabetic Angel looking out for me. And, this makes me want to cry,,, because sometimes I feel like I am begging for my life! And, it gets so frustrating and hard, and often nobody understands. I have walked around with bg over 1000, saying please... please... pleeeeeazzzzee, may I have some insulin? I have even had ppl say, well, you brought this condition upon yourself, as tho I deserve to suffer! It can be so sad! Yet, today... this is a good day to live! On days that I have not had insulin, or pump supplies,,, I say, well today, this is a good day to die! I never know what day I am going to live or what day I am going to die. I just want to live a long time, and live a healthy life,
Medtronic did say that the little blue plastic piece to insert my infusion set was not a medical necessity, even though I had a Rx from my Endo for it, as the tube was getting kinked and therefore insulin was blocked from getting in, and leaking out,,, they said, I will have to pay for that out-of-pocket, the insurance will not cover it. I ordered two pieces, because plastic parts don't last very long, and the freaky little gadget really IS a benefit and necessity! They said, either pay $60 for it, or pay shipping and handling and send it back for refund. I want this little plastic thing, and Need it! I don't have $60. I am doing free acupuncture for ppl who don't have insurance, and can't afford treatment. I only just started a job for a clinic that accepts insurance and has paying patients. I won't get a check until first of next month, I am borrowing money to even drive to the clinic.
Ahh, if it's not one thing,,, it's another,,, everyday... is a good day... to live or die... oh crap, I missed a bolus, my pump is low, got to go eat and reload cartridge,,, I am so thankful this moment for food in my fridge, two new vials of insulin, pump supplies, and fresh batteries, a blood checker and box of strips, a little blue plastic inserter,,, I am thankful for Dr. Yu, who gives me acupuncture - or I'd be in a mental institution, he gave me a good paying clinic job and soon I'll be OFF all state assistance, he knows I am a good person, with a good heart, and I am a skilled acupuncturist, and very good with herbs, I am a strong voice and a good advocate for people on Western medical care and jumping through medical hoops, Maybe Dr. Yu is my Diabetic Angel, with his Chinese Qigong powers! I am so thankful for this forum too, our chats are giving me so much validation, appreciation, and respect... empowering me in ways I don't have words to articulate, and will benefit me as a practitioner. Maybe I will go two more years of school, get my PhD, and open a Diabetes Clinic!
DW, you've inspired me! Maybe I'll slap the ol' CGM on for a few days, and see how my bg's are doing beyond the two - four finger sticks I've been doing. Thank YOU!!!