I was actively against getting an educator, but my endocrinologist doesn’t want to deal with anything pregnancy related, and my gynecologist made it clear the diabetes was too much for her to handle, so she referred me to a high risk pregnancy clinic. The doctor was not very empathetic in my opinion, and gave the typical scare speech. She referred me to the educator after telling me the 7.2 that I had worked so hard to achieve was meaningless. That was a low point, and I went into the educator with an attitude of, “this is it. If I don’t get some help, I’m giving this whole thing up, and adopting”. The previous doctors had already scared my husband enough that he was begging me to just adopt. The educator saw all this, and begged me to just keep coming to meetings. She even asked the clinic not to charge me a copay ro make it more enticing. She kept cheering me up and encouraging me, and after 8 months of meetings, I was at a 5.6 and ready to start trying. It is hard to find the right support, and I was very lucky to find her when I did. For me, even trying to get pregnant has been a battle against my own fear and society’s prejudices, but I console myself that it’s good practice for being a mom. I also remember that all mom’s worry; we just start earlier than other people, which means we have more practice.
As far as lows go, I understand completely. I had maybe a half dozen seizures as a teenager and was scared too. But I realized that I had to take that risk if I was going to get the hba1c down. It’s part of the reason I quit because it’s not easy to take a break to fix a low where I work. It still freaks me out a bit to cruise along at 75, but I know I have sugar and can fix it if anything changes. The cgm was very helpful in letting me know when lows were about to happen which means I can prevent the really bad lows that lead to seizures.
Also, the cgm taught me that pre-bolusing was a good thing to be doing if I want that low hba1c.