So I'm doing well at managing my blood glucose with metformin, diet, and exercise. My A1c is down to 5.6 from 11.1. I've lost 32 pounds. So I'm pretty on track.
But I'm frustrated by just one thing... and that frustration is starting to turn me apathetic.
Mornings drive me crazy. I'm above 120 by 7:30 AM and no matter what I eat for breakfast, my numbers shoot up to the 160s. This happens if I eat a few carbs with breakfast, a lot of carbs with breakfast, or almost no carbs with breakfast. I've found working out in the evening has helped bring my numbers down overall. But morning workouts seem to amplify my Dawn Phenomenon for some reason. So I stopped exercising before work and made it a part of my evening routine.
Also, I swear it takes over half the day for my numbers to finally come down from how high they climb in the morning. I honestly believe that if I could manage my Dawn Phenomenon my numbers would be down in the 90s for the entire day, not just the late afternoon and evenings.
But my medical providers won't help me do anything about it. They are unwilling to intervene until my numbers are much, much worse.
It pisses me off. Why does my health have to worsen before I'm able to get any help? Why can't I try to preserve my pancreas and improve my bg with tiny corrections now... instead of just sitting idly by until my pancreas is entirely shot and my bg management requires huge corrections?
This situation is making me apathetic. I've stopped checking my bg almost entirely. What's the point? To wind myself up with frustration and anger? It's not like I can do anything more about it. I take my meds. I eat low carb. I exercise. Since the doctors wont' let me do anything more about it... why should I monitor it at all? What good is it doing me? All it seems to do is add to my stress and anger at my disease.