i live in the greater Phoenix metro area.this time of year we hit about 110 degrees daily…this week we’ve been closer to 115. the temps will stay high for a few more weeks then dip down 5 or 10 degrees when the monsoon is in full effect…monsoon season is fun,big thunder storms every afternoon…sometimes it hails and somewhere is gonna get flooded.we dont get much weather in the desert so it’s a nice change even though it’s 108 and humid…
i do the kind of work where i’m out in peoples houses all day.i work out of a truck, i keep my insulin and test strips in a lunch box with nothing else but ice packs and a couple glucose boost shakes for an emergency low fix…my emergency glucagon shot is also in there too…i’v gotten used to making sure i have these things ready everyday.
last summer i would just grab a bottle of water and run out the door.things have really changed. i’v hardly left my house or even gone outside all week…if i cant get it done before noon its not getting done. its just too damn hot and i’m already worn out before noon anyway…i cant do 1/3 of the work i was doing even days before the seizures that landed me in the ER. heat or no heat i cant keep up.
i’m self employed,i’m the working partner and the other guy put up the money so all he does is collect his share…it’s physical work but i always liked that kind of work better than sitting down watching a clock tick.i’m good at the sale end and also the service,i enjoyed what i did…Now, i dont even want to answer my phone. i’m so pissed off about so many things related to the betes and the changes i’v had to make in such short order!! me not being able to work is easily the thing upsetting me the most.
i dont have many choices in resolving this…the partner is not happy about what has happened to the gross profits and i’m just not happy…i was not prepared for diabetes,how could anyone be? i’m only 30 i’m young i know…i dont feel young anymore,i feel like i aged 20 years overnight…
all my post Dx tests came back clean…brain is fine,eyes look good,kidney and liver function,blood pressure,cholesterol all fine…i know i’m lucky i know i could be in a coma or dead from ketoacidosis, i know i’m lucky not to have developed issues with my eyes and any other organs beside my lazy pancreas…i can live with pain and i can control my blood sugar, i want to believe i can live a sorta normal life someday…these days i’m feelin a lot like a tornado just rolled through my trailer park. shits everywhere and i dont know what the ■■■■ to do!