I've been doing exactly as told. I have been strict on my carb intake and dosing for it the was they tell me. I've been checking my sugars like I check my phone for messages and missed calls(its a lot)... I just can't wrap my brain around why my sugars are so high.
I went from 112 at lunch, eating 20g carbs, to 256 at dinner. I feel like such a failure. I don't understand. I'm being such an awful person to my boyfriend too. I feel horrible about that. =( He's been nothing but supportive about all of this, and I'm a jerk.
You are not a failure or a horrible person !!! Unless you are a new D, you might need a new dosing schedule. Perhaps there was a recent emotional occurrence or hormonal situation that effected your sugars. Explain to your BF what is happening to you and that you don't really understand it. He sounds like a person who would be completely supportive of your problem.
I feel your pain Libbie. Just remember it does take time to sort this all out so keep going and it will all line up for you soon.
My wife recently went back to school. She has way more on her plate than normal and has been totally stressed out. To say it nicely she has been mean on a couple of occasions recently. The only reason I say this is because I have been where your boyfriend is recently and I will tell you this: an apology goes a long way. Tell him it is not him, it is your frustration with the situation. Say sorry. That you will try to stop doing that. It sounds like he has been supportive through all this so I have no doubt he will accept that apology and will hold none of this against you.
You are not a failure! I don't know how long you have been at this, but diabetes is constantly changing. What works for us one day doesn't work the next. So many things besides food can throw our BS off. Do you have the book Using Insulin by John Walsh? It has some great tips in. A good place to start is by doing some basal testing - if your basal is off, then that will throw everything else off.
I agree with MossDog, apologize to your boyfriend. Explain to him what is going on and ask him to be patient with you while you get things sorted out.
Thanks for the advice. I will totally get that book.
I was diagnosed when I was 13. At 18 I decided I didn't care about anything and stopped checking my sugars, and fell off the face of the earth. Did what I could with what I had to make me feel better. A lot of it has to do with the whole not ever really having control thing... But I'll be 30 next year and I've done a lot of growing up. I decided it was time to take care of myself and take control of my life.
I have another appointment with the doctor next Wednesday. I'll be sure to explain my frustration, and ask for any suggestions because really, that's what I need. :D
The BF is the best thing to happen to me. We've been together for 4.5 years. He's extremely patient. I will apologize every chance I get.
