I just remembered lyrics to a song from my favorite band The Alarm:
“Give me love, Give me hope, Give me strength, Give me someone to live for”
Song is called “Strength” - its in my playlist on My Page. 
The lead singer has Leukemia but he still keeps on touring and rocking! Love, Hope and Strength is his motto!
((((Biggest hugs)))) You can do it hun, we’re here to support you whenever you need a vent and some support
Mwah x x x
Oh Robbs. I love Mark’s term “scrappper”. You are such a dear and sweet lady and I know there are many people here on TD who love you dearly. If you were here we could go to an oldies joint that plays classic rock and load up on Diet Pepsi. My heart goes out to you. This too shall pass. It’s a real pisser to have all the junk come down at once, and to be in a place where it seems like no effort will make any difference. Pink candle for you tonight. Seems like my pink candle has been getting a lot of use lately…
I have a perfect song for you that I hope is on You Tube. Will go look right now.
“Strength, Courage & Wisdom”
Inside my head there lives a dream that I want to see in the sun
Behind my eyes there lives a me that I’ve been hiding for much too long
'Cause I’ve been, too afraid to let it show
'Cause I’m scared of the judgment that may follow
Always putting off my living for tomorrow
It’s time to step out on faith, I’ve gotta show my face
It’s been elusive for so long, but freedom is mine today
I’ve gotta step out on faith, It’s time to show my face
Procrastination had me down but look what I have found, I found
[Chorus:]
Strength, courage, and wisdom
And it’s been inside of me all along,
Strength, courage, and wisdom
Inside of me
Behind my pride there lives a me, that knows humility
Inside my voice there is a soul, and in my soul there is a voice
But I’ve been, too afraid to make a choice
'Cause I’m scared of the things that I might be missing
Running too fast to stop and listen
It’s time to step out on faith, I’ve gotta show my face
It’s been elusive for so long but freedom is mine today
I’ve gotta step out on faith it’s time to show my face
Procrastination had me down but look what I have found, I found
[Chorus]
[Bridge:]
I close my eyes and I think of all the things that I want to see
'Cause I know, now that I’ve opened up my heart I know that
Anything I want can be, so let it be, so let it be:.
Strength, courage, and wisdom
It’s been inside of me all along,
Strength, courage, wisdom
It’s been inside of me all along, everyday I’m praying for:
[Chorus]
Vamp
I found it in me, I found it finally
I’m sure to keep it’ cause I like it, I say thank you
[Thanks to ISA for correcting these lyrics]
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Tough times and never easy. I hope they pass soon.
. I have a diabetes meltdown about once a year when the thought of doing this FOREVER is simply more than I can grasp. During these times I feel absolutely spent and there is nothing else to give. I pray and His answer is always the same…“Child, don’t do this for forever…just do it for THIS day.” And somehow I do what I need for THAT day and sometimes the next few days…but always one day at a time. This shift in focus doesn’t solve anything really…but it does help me catch my breath so I can carry on.
And if that doesn’t help, remember this “when the bluebird of paradise poops on your head…you don’t have to lick your lips!”
Love you Robin…please know that.
Oh Robyn, I can surly feel where you are coming from and I feel pretty much the same way most of the time, My friend I always enjoy your beautiful photo comments as you seem to lift my spirit when I think the worse is upon me but then I read a comment you left for me and it brightens me up when there is no other reason for me to smile. I just want to tell you that even as we have never meet personally your spirit is felt here in New England and if there is anything I can do for you I will as you are loved here my friend please keep the faith and your bubbly spirit alive We need YOU!!!
Yes Mark, you did say “scrapper” which I define as someone who is willing to fight with determination to get what they want.
BTW, what are you doing up at sucnh and ungodly early hour?
Robyn Wings
One voice echoes through the mountains
Sending whispery thoughts to you.
They touch your quiet Beauty
Yearning your joyful heart anew.
T.H.
Wishing you peace soon and always. I am Thankful for you.
Robyn…so sorry. I had no idea you have been hurting. Sending as many positive vibes as I can muster…
Think of how far you have come and take the how far you have to go in short steps and you will make it there in time.
Robyn; you are so supportive, helpful, and upbeat to our diabetic community! As responses to your blog indicate, you have a HUGE fan club. Count me as one of them. I have been thinking of you and how helpful you are to others and pondering how to best let you know the that the support and value you bestow us appreciated and important to us. Now it is your turn. As noted by the response to your blog, the troops are rallying to return some of the encouragement that you have so freely and effectively given us. Never give up! One day at a time, maybe just an hour at a time. Get through it and better times will come. You are loved, respected, admired and remembered in our prayers.
Robyn- I am at a loss for words. What can I possibly say to lift the spirits of the person who has done it for me and so many others more times than you can count. Just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and like many others I will send my most positive thoughts and vibes your way! P.S. It is definitely OKAY to vent!
Always here for you
miss you
Robin, sorry you are feeling bad. When I first go here I was so lost I did not know what was up or down. You did something for me that no doctor and no family member could have ever done and that was to bring me back to life. So what have I to say to you, well that you dont have to be happy every day of your life, give your self a chance to be sad and dont get mad at yourself because you are sad, mad and getting your butt kicked. One thing I learned is that we are all human and every once in a while we need to curl up into a little ball and take our licks and that is ok. Just because you are our life coach does not make you less of a person for gettin down on yourself. This slump is part of the marathon, one battle within the war.
I recently went to Florida for vacation, I would have not done that last year. I suffer some mild panic attacks but o well part of the experience. One thing that sticks in my mind though is that when we were in the beach there was a sign that spoke of rip tides. I told my son to be careful cause the rip tide takes you and you have no control. he told me he was faster and stronger than the rip tide, youth is so funny nothing knocks them down.
I told him with age comes wisdom and what you do is you let the rip tide take you and you swim with it until it lets you go. So in life I guess we have to let the rip tide take us and ride it until it lets us go. We go with it and fight with it and then eventually it lets you go, a bit further than were you were but if you go with it you are still alive.
So ride the rip tide and let it take you but know that it will let you go and at the end you will be stronger.
take care of yourself. I learned that sometimes we may have to take some dark paths because you never know who you are helping during that time.
miss u. Email me
Wow Robyn,
From your upbeat posts and your beautiful smile, none of us knew you were going through a tough time or a little too much stress.
I found that this site has been a Godsend. I never thought that I could let go of some of the pent up frustration that I had felt since David was diagnosed in 2003 and what it has entailed, dealing with a pre-teen to now a young adult with the never ending side kick that is diabetes. We are managing. I have vented a lot on this site and let go of a lot of frustration and I have appreciated so many people, you included, and want to say thanks for your kind words and the kind words of others that we have encountered on this site.
As a life coach, I know that you know, how to push forward. How to put that positive attitude into place. How to put that Robyn smile out there with enthusiasm not just a half; my job is to smile approach, but the full force of that positive attitude, this is what you get, Robyn smile. You have loads of people here thinking about you and wishing you well. I hope you can look far enough and deep enough to solve this, to be happy.
I started doing a few things this past year that I have not done since I was in my very early 20’s. One is I started back, playing hockey. A sport I loved and gave up when work (re-kids) became too much of a primary demand. A sport that I watched my T1 child excel at year after year since his diagnosis at age 10. I finally decided to go back to playing hockey myself, at age 49, figuring that if I did not do so now, I won’t ever. An amazing thing happened. On starting to play again I realized that for the past few years, since my Dad died that I had been not just a little but really quite depressed. Might have something to do with the fact that when I did play all those years ago, my Dad had been the coach, but enough of that. I don’t really need to know more than I know right now, which is that the sport, particularly at this age, is really a load of fun. It is something that I do once to twice a week for me, something that I look forward to, something that I enjoy.
I know that with time, whatever is going on, you will figure it out and you have a huge crowd here waiting to hear from you. Waiting to hear about your triumphs. Waiting to hear how you knock down your dissapointments. Take care, Lots of love and hugs to you. If only hugs, could make all to boohoos, in the world, go away!
Thinking of you!
Cheryl
Hello Robyn, I am sorry that you have to “fight […] to be happy and keep on living”. This really sounds alarming and I hope you will find people to support you in your struggle. People who give you something back of the strength you have invested in them. You have given much to others and now you deserve to get something back. No miracles but the small steps and helping hands we all need from time to time. Be well, Holger
Thank you everyone for your kindness and love…I think you all have done more for me in the last 10 months than I could ever have done for anybody. You have repaired my soul, brought all I am out, given me reason to go on. I do love you and find such strength in all of your support. xo Okay…now back to kicking some A$$…in all the areas of my life…lol.
Robyn I agree with Cheryl. I don’t actively participate on this site as much as I should, but you have always been a shining beacon of positive thought and always such a nice bright shining face. It’s been one year since my diagnosis of being T1 @ 45 years old. And you really do give optimism and hope for a others out there. Wishing you all the best.