Well, I have to come clean. For the last 9 months I have been under tremoundous stress at home, personal life and the good old "D" is giving me a run for my money.
I get down for a day or two and then kick myself in my own A$$, and have a good attitude and find hope and strength every day....most of the time.
But, I have to tell you all.....I feel beaten down, tired, overwhelmed and just plain worn out. I have hope for my furture and will fight tooth and nail to be happy and keep on living....life can be so very good. I want the good now....just a little bit?
So, I am airing my dirty laundry to all of you....the Life Coach and Grateful Woman is need of some help from the best people I know and will ever know......YOU.
Hey robyn, You’ve got a GREAT attitude!!! Here’s hoping for better times for us all! WE WILL DO THIS AND YOU LOOK LIKE YOUR GETTING BACK UP & HEADING INTO THIS WITH A GOOD ATTITUDE!!! GOOD FOR YOU! Life sometimes gets us down but we have to keep going. My moto on my page.
Hang in there Robin. I know how you feel. I wish I could get just a little bit of that good now too. I lots of bad and a smidge of good and than the bad walks all over it - been like this for many years. I need a break! I never understood how some people get so much good they are drowning in it and us others have to grab draws for it. I wish for you to be drowning in it! Hugs Kim
It happens, Robyn… Life is sometimes ironic, isn’t it? I have lost all this wonderful weight, and I have a job interview on Monday, and don’t have a dime to my name… and NOTHING fits. I can’t even wing it! It all falls off. lol I might have to wear a sack of potatoes to that interview!
I know life is crappy, right now… but you’re already so victorious in so many ways… You are gorgeous, you have beautiful grandbabies, you have wonderful friends and people who love you… and you are not alone… even in your fighting you are not alone… We’re all sitting there, on that roller coaster ride, next to you. Be kind to yourself… hugs
Hey, Liz that same thing happened to me. I bought a pair of new interview pants right before my diagnosis - I lost 20 lbs and now I can’t even wear them! wah! Looks like I am wearing a black bag. Now I gotta go and look for a new pair. Good on your interview - I don’t have any lined up just yet.
Hey, that’s hardly dirty laundry. We want some real, good dirt:)
Is exhausting to be under constant stress at home. Worse than work stress. Home is supposed to be the safe haven. Having to give yourself pep talks to keep going is tiring also.
Maybe real boxing gloves would be a fun diversion. A friend is taking a boxing class & she says it’s the best stress release & empowering.
You’re a strong woman with amazing inner resources. Brighter & better will happen. Keep your beautiful head up looking forward.
Before I was diagnosed I was planning on starting a “Rocky” style training thing for the spring I had all the movies Tivo’d and was gonna watch them all in a row and get started on my super training. Well, that got trumped - I was so exhausted by the D there is no way I could run up any steps!(plus my ex broke my Tivo) But boxing, hmm… I am sure all the adrenaline will raise my BG. My favorite way to forget about my stress is watch a movie I love.
Everything will be okay, I know cuz we are going to paint the town red in the future whahahaha. Don’t forget to follow your heart, and bath in chocolate daily.
Hang in there! we’re all here for you just like you have been here for us. Lord knows I’ve felt like that before, and probably will again, but we all keep going because life is good.
Robyn – Sorry to hear that you’re having one of the rough spots. If it’s getting too much to handle, break your goals into smaller, more easily obtainable things that will help you stay on track. Also, give yourself a break. Bad numbers? Well, we’ll just try to figure out what happened. Stress? Never good for the D. We can manage this, we cannot control it. The rest of life is kind of the same story. We can’t control it but we can mitigate the major pains in the A$$. Also, if you want to vent do it. Any number of folks here would be there for you to listen and let you get it out. Life is a real job. Look back at your successes and realize that you did that.
I got to admit it. I like reading the “venty” blogs on here because than I know that I am not the only crazy person having problems and if we all are, well, it can’t be all that bad and we can all get through it together. So vent away - I’ll be reading and commiserating with ya!
Robyn! You have been chief among the most optimistic and encouraging people on this site, always ready to give a thumbs up and kind word to everyone. All of us are only too glad to extend a hand and smile to you.
Tho’ not one for cliches, I say to you “keep your eye on the prize”!
Good on your interview - I don’t have any lined up just yet.
Spend all that bad energy/anxiety/stress/anger/whatever.