Every time I see you I want to touch you.
Every time I hear from you
I imagine you're next to me.
Every time I kiss you
I need to hold you.
Every time you hold me
I want to kiss you.
Every time you smile
I grow happy.
Every time you are stubborn
I want to prove you wrong,
just to have an excuse
to see you sad,
That way I can kiss you
and see if I can make you happy.
I hate what you see in my eyes I know you only know because you love me Please, when I come around I mean me not the me with barren, hungry blood not the angry, resentful me
I hate that you see it in my eyes before I know myself I hate that you learned to notice please when I come around forgive me.
If someone can get grouchy missing a meal what happens when the brain is starving?
I know, because I've felt it You know, because you've seen it Please forgive me I hate what you see in my eyes
When my blood sugar is not Dr. Bernstein good, I can't sleep. I amuse myself by staring at the ceiling and writing a haiku. This one comes back to me time and again:
Bedtime Haiku
My mind is a-swirl, thoughts like darting dragonflies.
Insects, go to sleep!
She had a drawer A magic drawer
We could choose
One gift on Christmas Eve
I have a rattan trunk It collects treasures all year
Like her drawer
And I send them off to
Far-flung places
For gifts of Christmas Present
Christmas Eve at her cozy home Leontyne Price singing Ave Maria
Cousin Johnny concocting weird cocktails
Baby Lisa sitting in her Grampa's lap
Tasting rutabagas, mashed, for the first time
And liking them Only her and my dadâŚ..
And there was a gorgeous midnight service Candles and folks from the
Minnesota orchestra
Carols
Joy and tears
Home and safe
Dad's Grasshoppers
Because they are green
Of CourseâŚâŚ
Blessed night to all From a Presbyterian AtheistâŚ..
Here is a poem I wrote this year for the seventh grade poetry share at my school. For those of you who are curious, it is a pantoum. Enjoy!!!
Everything changed that day The day that diabetes came into my life
I was terrified but calm
There wasnât a way out
The day that diabetes came into my life I was taught to stick needles into my body
There wasnât a way out
And there still isnât
I was taught to stick needles into my body Itâs old hat for me now
Because there still isnât a way out
I donât just survive; I thrive
Itâs old hat for me now I have made my prison a home
I donât just survive; I thrive
I am living proof of âwhat doesnât kill you makes you strongerâ
I have made my prison a home It is not a prison now
I am living proof of âwhat doesnât kill you makes you strongerâ
Diabetes has not defeated me
It is not a prison now I have accepted it and I can control it
Diabetes has not defeated me
And it never will
I have accepted it and I can control it Diabetes does not define me
And it never will
Everything changed that day
SOFT clouds of steam rise up like so much primordial mist. Soft white fields of blue Cornflowers rise in the heat of Electricity vibrating. Who created this majestic work of art that lies spread before me in all its pristine glory? Golden sun rising in the mist. Blue on white floating , swirling its essence. In my heart of hearts, souls march through the rising mist like soldiers lining up for battle. In the rising mist I will challenge the course of action whose vibrations make you a slave to me.
YOU rise in the mist of dawn with aching countenance. Creating beautiful details that delight my eyes, like the Cornflowers that bend their graceful heads so slowly.in the grey mist of early dawn . You give your art and life to stitch or sew for my delight. With ethical dignity you rise in the mist to create lines in the soft pale cloth with which you color my existence.
Ellen, I enjoyed your poem, The Colors of Summer, not only for it's beauty but the meaning it conveys. Thanks so much for thinking of me when you wrote it!
Oh my. Such a beautiful and evocative invocation for summer. Interestingly---I have had Beloved Trudy in my mind on more than one occasion when I was inspired to write. That is part of your essence, Trudy. Thanks to you both. Much needed tonight...xx000
Thank you God for giving us dogs. They bring love and kindness into our world.
When things go wrong, my dog seems like simplicity.
He makes everything easier.
Where does he get all his energy?
Keeping me active long after I want to sit down.
I thank you God for Ammi.
I thank you for all the dogs that I have had.
I know they are all in heaven, waiting for me.
Lovely, indeed, Ellen. I have photos of my Saints all over the house. Even though I have cats now, I'm with Trudy---I interact daily with several neighborhood dogs and love how excited they get when they see me coming---even if it's a bad day, they make me smile and laugh outright at their boundless enthusiasm for being on this earth.....