Diabetic...Does it make you sad?

#1

Does anybody have those times where your’e so tired of being diabetic.

I get like that once in a while, to the point where it makes me really upset and sad. it’s probably normal for everyone who has this disease but it just really effects me. i start hateing myself and everything that comes along with being diabetic.i have nightmares and many sleepless nights thinking about the horrible things that are going to happen to me. i just need to know that im not the only one who gets like this…because besides this i am a really positive and happy person.thanks for answering my question!!!

#2

i get like that sometimes. But then again, I feel like Im still in the process of coping with it. I look at it as Im morning the loss of my old life (being carefree and eating whatever I want), and starting a new one (healthy eating and exercise, both of which i dont like to do lol). I try not to think of all the complications of diabetes and focus more on taking care of myself so that doesnt happen. I know it’s hard to stay positive. But hang in there. When Im in one of those moods, I go out and treat myself to get my mind off of it

#3

it doesn’t bother me until i have a low and the low prevents me from being a part of something. like a conference that you have to be in your seat at a certain time or you won’t be allowed in. this happened to me just last week. soo not fun. oh and i was testing and this girl stared at me while i tested, all i wanted to do is show her my meter and say “yes i have diabetes it is not fun like you think it is.” those jonas brother’s fans have no clue what we go through 24/7. sorry i was thinking about some youtube video’s.

#4

I just have to say that it’s not accurate to say, “the horrible things that are going to happen to me.” I had that attitude for a long time, that it didn’t really matter what I did because eventually I was going to go blind and lose my legs and have kidney failure. Those things are far more likely to happen when people don’t manage their diabetes, but they aren’t absolute givens. It will negatively affect your mood and the way you feel about yourself and your life if you assume those are automatically going to happen. Managing your diabetes isn’t a guarantee that those things will never happen, but it improves your odds of avoiding problems by leaps and bounds. You probably know that already, but if you’ve said what you’ve said here about it, that makes me think on some level you believe the worst is inevitable. You can challenge those beliefs by telling yourself more positive messages. Make a conscious effort to remind yourself that complications are NOT inevitable, and in time, it’s what you will believe and that will have a positive affect on your mood and your overall attitude about diabetes. It’s good to recognize your sadness and anger about having diabetes because I have more concern about people who deny they experience that than people who do, but it’s also important to embrace the power you have to affect the outcome and not assume the worst is inevitable.

#5

Michelle:

You are definitely not alone. Fighting depression with this disease seems like a never-ending struggle with only brief interruptions of happiness. It’s a life-long learning experience with its highs and lows. Just hang in there and keep the faith. Find your encouragement from within and with others. Glad to see you here.

Lois La Rose
Milwaukee, WI

#6

You know, I was Dx’d when I was 7 and a lot of adults don’t really notice when kids are around. I managed to soak up a lot of horror stories about what had happened to someone’s second cousin, twice removed on their mom’s side after they were diagnosed back in 1948.

But the truth is that I am 45 now and not one of those effin’ stories has come to pass for me. I know they have for others and I wish that it hadn’t. Your future is yours. Could bad things happen? sure, I know it sucks, but that is the truth.

I also get where I am damn tired of the whole D thing, but it is not the future that bugs me. It is just the dang day-to-day stuff that never seems to end. Remember the greek legend of Syphius? His punishment from the gods was to roll a rock to the top of of a needle topped hill until he could balance the rock on the point of the needle. It always seems to roll off the needle and back to the bottom of the hill. That’s what I feel like at times, it is a project that never frak’n ends

I don’t hate myself anymore. I do however really despise the guy in the fastlane doing 10 MPH under the speed limit. I guess my point here is that there are so many more really despicable things out there that you don’t need to waste your spite on yourself!!

We have a lot of control over what our future holds. Control your diabetes, control your life. You can do that

/wink

Scott

#7

All of the time my friend. But I persist nonetheless.

#8

Yes, yes, yes! Want a magical place where I can go on vacation from diabetes for just a day. One day to have my former life back. Get sad, get depressed, get angry, feel sorry for myself. Michelle, you’re not alone in feeling this way. You’re right, it is normal. Who could walk around feeling good about a diease that requires constant monitoring & care!

Some days I’m more accepting than others. Tell myself that it’s a given & to move forward. I do whatever I can to stay healthy. I don’t think horrible things are inevitable at all!

Hate the diabetes & everything that goes along with it, but please don’t hate yourself. Don’t let being diabetic define you. You’re so much more than just this condition.

#9

Dear Michelle.

You feelings are normal and it is impossible to get away from the disease even for a few hours. Do the best you can to keep your blood sugars as close to normal as possible and you don’t have to worry about the complications. That is great that you are naturally a positive person this helps also to keep the BG under control getting depressed is bad. But we all do at times don’t worry you are not alone.

#10

Michelle: You definitely are not alone. There is a whole range of emotions that goes with this, as you have read. For me, it is saddness and anger - I think about how my life would have ben different were I not diabetic. Would I not worry about the effects of being low when I am taking care of my daughter? Would my marriage have not ended (I can easily attribute diabetes and my less than stringent care for myself as the cause), would I be more confident about finding a new person? Of course, if I did not have diabetes, it might have been something else, like an inability to keep a job, or another health problem or who knows. I get down about all of the preparation I have to do – making sure I have the right supplies in all the places I am going to be. I get angry about how much I spend on health care and how many hours/days I spend at my various doctors.
I’m getting close to 30 years with this condition, and though I know more about it now than I did 5 years ago (thank you, tudiabetes!!), I often feel I will never get the hang of it. But, I then focus on the fact that I am generally doing ok, all things considered.
My nightmares and sleepless nights about it are often the result of lows – they embarrass me and scare me. But, then I get better.
Focus on the good things in your life – there is so much to be grateful for all around us. And, if we take care of ourselves, we will be healthier than many without diabetes. Think about it – keeping your cholesterol and blood pressure as low as my docs recommend and exercise and eating right all will help us stay healthy – healthier than the people who don’t pay attention to those things.

#11

Yes, I get sad sometimes. I get scared too. When I was first told I was diabetic more than a year ago, I got so depressed. I felt the world collapsed on me. At that time i was not informed of diabetes. That made me scared. Fear that almost consumed me for so many months. Thats why I tried to empower myself with knowledge…I read and read books…surf the net…asked my doctor…As long as I do things"right", i will be fine. That’s when family support and understanding came very important. Yes…I have sad moments still…but sometimes its good to know that Im alive…That I am loved…That for most I can still do whatever I want…I can appreciate the beautiful things around me…and meet wonderful people.

My mom once told me a story about a" man who wanted new shoes so bad…he got so sad because he cannot afford any. Then he saw another man with no legs and feet…" So Michelle…Smile…I think youre truly blessed.

#12

This disease definitely has destroyed my life and made me sad. Life has definitely not been normal since the day I got diabetes and the lows are absolutely horrible and I am hardly ever aware of when I am going to hit the floor until I come out of it. I don’t think that too many men would want a relationship with a type 1 diabetic, that’s fo sure. Sharon

#13

i feel the same way. My self esteem, attitude, and everyday feelings change based on this disease.

#14

well it’s either live or die, there is no in between. We can sit around and be sad about it all we want, but their is a whole wide world out there passing us by if we do. That’s why we fight it! No one said it was easy, but god or whatever higher power wouldn’t give it to us if we couldn’t handle it. Diabetes is all about listening to your body, having motivation, a positive attitude, and a will to fight.

Living your life and taking control of it is the best revenge (in reference to diabetes)

Razors pain you… Rivers are damp… Acide stains you… And drugs cause cramp… Guns aren’t lawful… Nooses give… gas smells awful… You might as well live." – Dorothy Paker, “Resume”

#15

Dear Carol.

You are absolutely right life is unfair. The cause of diabetes is unknow at the moment and the cure we did not get because G.Bush banned stem cell research 8 years ago so at least 10 years of research in the USA have been lost, so for you and I the cure will come too late.

My brother had diabetes, hydrocephalus and severely gangrened feet in the end. But he was still positive and cheerful even when dying. Strange I never understood that. But he had studied most of his life positive thinking tapes and people like Norman Vincent Peel.

I never found any pills to work for depression but talk therapy is successful somewhat. Possibly getting some of these positive thinking tapes and playing them over and over will probably do some good. We have the evidence of my brother’s case. Could be he was a positive person by birth but I am not and I never listened to such tapes and tend to agree with what you have written. This is counterproductive and if we believe this to be true and unchangeable what is the use of living. So it may be better to develop and alternate way of thinking. Plus you are painting a too black picture of the disease. I go to the gym, went on a bus tour of France and I even survived fishing in British Columbia. I have climed mountains. I am grotestquely overweight and that bothers me and I have not found a sure fire way to loose and keep off even 10 lb but I still plan to try something.

It takes tremendious will power to fight the disease and at our age it gets harder and harder. This is a good web site you can get some inspiration here from the fighting diabetics. Look at Nel Peach blogs she has had diabetes for years and runs 1/2 marathons at 69. How about that!

#16

It does sometimes, like last night. I put in my insulin pump site, and a couple minutes later, my insulin pump on the clip fell off my pants, and ripped off my site right after I did it! And last night, my blood sugar was in the 400’s, then at 1 AM, it went shooting low. But, some days you just have fun, and forget that you even have diabetes… that is, until my mom calls me inside to check my blood sugar again! haha hang in there!

#17

I often feel like you do…I cry when I think back to my High
school days and early 20’s and say “that was living”…and wish I was non-diabetic again, what freedom others have!!!

#18

God bless you Michelle: Life with this disease is beyond disgusting. I have lost my drivers license and ended up in the hospital (all because of hypoglycemic attacks). We are also not living in a greac country forf any kind of assistance as far aws type 1 diabetes is concerned. Sharon

#19

I often have feelings of frustration which I have sometimes let turn into despair. But I talk myself out of it. I say “thank you God for diabetes” even though that sounds crazy because I believe that someday I’ll realize it’s a blessing for me. Then I say thank you for glucose strips and insulin and forums like this and health insurance and friends who care. Then I say thank you that I don’t have something worse. Then I say great things about the future like “soon I’m going on the pump and it will be great” or “they’re working on cures for this all the time” or “tomorrow I’m going to start having GREAT control.” Then I think about all the people in this with me. You know it’s crazy but I even draw inspiration from Nick Jonas! I say “if he can do it so can I.”

So the answer is yes it sometimes does make me sad. I let myself feel sad for 15 seconds and acknowledge that it’s a PAIN and then I chase the blues away. Hang in there Michelle my friend! And all the rest of you (us)!

Maria

#20

It makes me sad sometimes. I have my moments where I am falling apart. Where I just don’t want to live like this anymore.
But I have a choice, to live or die.
I can take care of myself and live life the best I can or not care anymore and slowly kill myself
When I am having one of those times where I am falling apart, I know I always have a place to run and that place is here.
My friends on here make me feel 10 times better. Just talking to them and knowing that they care and knowing that tomorrow is a new day gets me through those times.