I day with the family. While family can be stressful, typically you think of family as being a haven. Lately, mine has been anything but. Being diagnosed as an adult, I got all kinds of responses from my mom, upon telling her. They ranged from “Your not a child, are you sure it’s not type 2?” “We don’t have that on my side of the family, so they must be wrong” " You know you always ate too much sugar" My dad can’t stand talk of dieases or needles or even finger pokes (although he worked in a hospital!), he has to just leave the room. So, I guess it’s not too surprising when spending a day with my family (including my brother who just returned from Europe) turned into a constant attack from myy mom. I try to be discreet with testing and shots, but I think my mother looks for it. The first time I tested, my mom said to my brother, “Do you want Chloe to test your sugar, you know she has diabetes.!” The sarcasm kills me. Later at lunch, after I return from testing and shooting up I get, " Is that meal appropriate for a diabetic, you know you really should be eating more protein…that’s probably why you have this problem" And later on while testing I got " Don’t you think your a little obsessed with that, I think you like poking your finger."
The sad thing is that all night I wondered if she was right. At what point does good control become obsessive. I usually test about 4 times a day. Sounds like a lot to some, not enough to others. From the outside, I don’t look or feel different, but if my own mom can’t seem to get over it… I start to think I am flaunting this around. Maybe this is why I’m not telling my friends that it is “official”. I’m afraid others will behave like my mom. Every time I visit her, I come away feeling just plain bad. I don’t want it to be that way with everyone else, and nobody really understands. Truthfully, I still feel like this will go away. Like my beta cells just need to reboot after a nice long vacation. So for now I’m left with the question, what is normal behavior for a diabetic? Do you hide so no one knows, do you openly test, do you talk about it? I feel a little lost. Less than before I found this site. Truly, it’s nice to know there are others out there!