Good news bad news

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I thought I would try a balanced approach. My anger and sarcasm are even irritating to me. So I am forcing myself to think of good news.

good news: My blood sugar measurements in the last three days have been below 170, and twice today I was below 140

good news: I no longer have to pee every two hours

good news: I don't get all cramped up and stiff when I sit in my office chair too long or on extended car rides (can this really be???)

good news: I can work through the 2:30 afternoon slump without a distracting need for a nap (can this really be??)

good news: My eyes don't seem to get "tired".

good news: I found this forum and a lot of neat people who listen to me and who I can learn from.

By the same token, I want to be able to clearly see and say what isn't working. So here is the bad news.

bad news: I am so over the needle thing. No really. Done with it. I don't want to play anymore.

bad news: learning how to eat is like learning medieval Albanian - its just all up hill and confusing and, frankly, not the most interesting thing to me right now. So I mostly end up eating too much meat because its easy and not terribly wrong.

bad news: I have so many enemies. Krispy Kream is an enemy. Entenmanns is an enemy. Dutch apple pie, with vanilla ice cream is an enemy. And some food is "kind of" an enemy. Pizza are you still my friend? Hot Italian Sausage are you still my friend? Pasta, are you leaving me too? And black beans and rice, what gives? I have always loved you. And not just food. My own body is my enemy. My pancreas is not acting like a friend. My body revolts from the needles and lancets.

If needles and lancets are my new friends, why don't they act like it? Why do they hurt me?

bad news: I don't feel attractive. I feel medicinal.

bad news: I think I am depressed.

bad news: my girlfriend has given me wierd looks. She is supportive, but I think she is deciding how much of my new needle hobby she wants to deal with for the rest of her life.

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I’m sorry you’re having such a hard time. HUG I understand – I’m Puerto Rican. I grew up on rice and beans, and the best cucine there is, really: caribbean/creole/cajun cucine. I know it’s hard… but you have to be more sly than the food. :wink: What do you like better? The rice, or the beans? I measure 2/3 cup of beans, and have those with two pork chops. I don’t worry about the protein, I don’t worry about the fat. It’s excess carbs that cause bad lipid profiles. It really is. Ask anyone here.

You don’t have to go on an extremely low carb diet, but lowering your carb amounts, and experimenting with your meter is the way to go… I measure dry pasta first, using a digital scale, and then eat it a la primavera style… with a lot of veggies: broccoli, cauliflower, string beans, carrots, etc… the fiber seems to slow down things a lot, and reduce my spikes.

I know you’ll learn your own tricks, too. You can still make diabetic friendly pizza, with a low carb crust… even burgers. It’s a matter of being creative, and making Diabetes your ■■■■■, and not the other way around. lol I invite you to join a few low carb groups for people’s ideas on what to eat… Heck, here’s a recipe for low carb resees peanut butter cups. They are quite large. One or two will do ya. :wink: http://www.tudiabetes.org/profiles/blogs/guiltless-large-peanut-butter

Believe in yourself. You can do this. If I can do it, you can, too… I’ve lost like 70+ lbs… doing my own thing, and with no need of any nutritionist, or diet program crap. YOU CAN DO IT. Stick to low glycemic load foods, for satiety, and eat small portions of the higher glycemic kinds… That way, you reduce the spike. (Heck, we only live once!) Have half a Krispy Kreme, and give the other half to the girlfriend… That stuff is like 30 carbs, or so… so half should be 15, I think. You can walk right after eating it, if you want… That’s what I do, when I want a cupcake. Eat half, and give the man the other half, and then I go walking… :slight_smile: Nothing big, just a couple blocks or so.

Lowering your carbs will take care of your lipids, your blood pressure, etc. Focus for now, on that… :slight_smile: I’m pulling for ya. We’re all in this together.

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Hey there,

I just wanted to say hang in there. THIS DOES SUCK! No questions, no doubt…

My husband wavered about me getting a pump and having all that stuff attached all the time, but it’s been so much better for me that now he says he loves me and my pump. I don’t love my pump, but it keeps me alive so it’s a necessary evil. Your girlfriend might just come around.

Hang in there - treat the depression if you are depressed - keep talking, typing, blogging, crying if you need to.

There was a lot of good news in your post, so that is encouraging. Keep focusing on those good things as much as you can.

Hang in there,
R

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Cheesecake is my enemy, Brownies are my enemy, pizza is my enemy, potlucks are my enemy.
I hear you brother!!

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I just cleared my cupboards half empty and emptied my fridge almost entirely, of enemy combatants. Some embarrasing things in there. I love frozen milkyway bars on a popcicle stick. Had a freezer full ready to go. I love premium rootbeer, and had taken to mixing my own with rootbeer syrup and club soda. I had to drain a carboy of rootbeer down the sink.

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I have done a fair bit of crying the past couple of weeks.

I was depressed once before, after a divorce, and I have noticed I have some of the signs again.

But the good things on the list are encouraging.

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Ah, black beans i rice. I love that :smiley:
And there’s no reason you can’t still have it. Once you get good at being able to just look at food and know about how many carbs are in it (You’ll learn, i promise :), you can just take a small shot to cover it, and then have your black beans and rice :slight_smile:

And your pie too! There’s nothing saying you can’t still have the foods you love, you just have to be a little more careful with them. There are ways to eat apple pie and not have your bg go over 120, i promise :slight_smile:

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Just keep your chin up. It’s not so bad, you’ll get the hang of it :slight_smile: