Lately I have guilt about everything I eat.
Can you say a bit more about that, Karen? Why are you feeling guilty? Are you having uncontrolled blood sugars? Is someone making you feel guilty or are you doing it to yourself? I think the whole guilt thing comes from seeing some things as “good” and some things as “bad”. Life just isn’t that black and white! My suggestion is that if you are doing pretty well at controlling your blood sugars with the diet you are eating, then give yourself a break! If it is not working too well at all then look at what changes you can make and work on changing one thing at a time. “Progress, not perfection.”
For as long as you do everything in moderation, there is no reason to feel guilty… Restricted diets never worked for me…
I just hate when at the two hour mark my bloodsugar can be normal and then another hour later sky high, I know fat and protein can be kicking in but lately this is happening to me more and more even if I eat the same thing as the day before and there is no fat delay kicking in.
My last A1C was good, but to me it is the unexpected highs through out the day that just do me in.
I have never really restricted my diet, but I do avoid foods that I know I won’t do well with, then I get so pissed/guilt ridden when I have highs on a healthy meal.
There is no winning with this disease.
So sorry, Karen. Would eating differently help?
I feel you like I am sure that we all do. it is one of those things my dad always told me and my sis since we were Dx’ed that we will win some and we will lose some we are diabetic no way are we always going to be perfect or normal I mean heck what is normal anyway lol. You just have to pick your battles. that is why there are wonderful sites hlike this that helps us through our ups and downs with this disease. I will send out good vibes to you and hope you find some peace with this.
Karen- I think you are just too hard on yourself. You can’t be perfect, none of us can be. We all live in that “gray zone.” of some ups and downs with our BS #'s. You will drive yourself crazy with this guilt.
I read your home page and you have been in the trenches along time Karen. I am sure you have had other low points and you will figure out how to adjust with this challenge too. Hang in there.
Ugh, I can totally commiserate with you. I hate it when I see a number that I don’t “deserve”!
One thing that helps me is doing 10 minutes or so of activity right after eating. Even if I’ve eaten fats/protein, activity seems to work for me. If I can’t go on a walk then a lot of times I vacuum or clean my house or something. Even a little bit seems to help.
I’m sorry you’re feeling guilty. I hate that feeling.
Have you had any success with extended bolusing? Maybe that can help the delayed highs? No guilt necessary. I am sure that all of us question things we eat. I know I do it all of the time.
don’t beat yourself up, that’s what Robyn told me :).And i kind look at it a a analytical way in other words i try and view it scientifically or as a observant (like a doc or something). Check and move on, figure it out. As for food…welll… don’t deprive yourself, maybe eat sugar free gum for sweetness, and find alternatives to like (for example i like oatmeal i hated eating quacker brand because i had to force myself to eat, now i eat some unadded sugar stuff and sweetened it with splenda)
Good luck!
I feel like that sometimes. I just try to take things a bit at a time and ignore that guilt voice in the back of my mind. It’s hard though…diabetes can have a mind of its own. Hang in there and I hope things even out soon.
I gave up feeling guilty. I do what I can and some days it just doesn’t seem to work as well as I want to. I do my best to manage my blood sugars, but damn it, I also want to live as normally as possible. I don’t deny myself any specific foods since I know if I do, I’ll end up binging. I used to blame myself for “bad” numbers, but then I realized its only my blood sugar not cooperating with me. Sometimes it does cooperate and then I wonder what I’m doing “right”.
I know there is no such thing as perfect with this disease, so I don’t bother. Sometimes its just a day or survival and if I can get through the day without tearing my hair out, its a good day.
Hang in there. This disease does suck
Amen to ditching the guilt! There’s only so much we can do & ony so much we should feel responsible for.
Karen, guilt is such a wasted energy. Don’t allow it to get you down. No way!! Especially since you’ve said your A1C is good. Now, to my understanding, if your on a pump, you can control those annoying “after meal highs” by spreading out your bolus. There are so many things that can set off your blood sugars. If you’ve changed your meds, drinking a new herbal tea, menstrual cycle, allergies, hormonal changes, and even injuries can make controlling sugars aggravating… Just hang in there. Your doing something right if you have good A1C…
Hi Karen
I see that you are on a pump. Do you ever use the square wave bolus? I recently discovered that I am a “slow digester”. I started using the square wave (1/2 hour to 1 hour) with almost every meal and have good results. Before I would be low at one hour post meal, then high 2 - 3 hours after. Super frustrating.
Karen:
i suspect your body may be changing. I never had this issue for years and years, then all of a sudden my food stopped digesting on a predicable schedule. .Today I can eat, cover square wave, for an hour, be low at 30 mins, be low at 1 hour, then sky high at 2 hours. It is a mess and there really is no rhyme or reason to the pattern. It is frustrating, and when I went to the doctor we talked about gastroparesis, which makes sense, until one looks at the symptoms. Fast feeling of fullness, loss of weight etc. The only recognized symptom i have is slow absorption and i suppose that is not enough to call it certainty. It is frustrating. I wish I could say hey this is what I do to make it alright, but really i have not found the answer. I do delay my insulin as much as an hour sometimes, but when I do that my Bg can go through the roof, or not. It just depends.
rick phillips
I’m trying to lose the guilt, because when I feel guilty I mess up more. Not just a bite of something, but a lot of something (cake, candy, whatever.) And I realized that it isn’t that we eat bad things it is that our bodies can’t handle food like other people. Which is unfair, isn’t it.