Horses and Sisters

Ok so heres the latest:

My neighbors Bonnie and Jerry are getting another horse. They had 4 but they gave me their quarter horse mare. so now they have 3 plus mine that lives with theirs. Mine is a bay named CoCoa. Anyway, the new one is a Tennissee Walker named Secret (isnt that an amazing name?). He's 13 and Jerry said hes REALLY pretty. I am SO excited! I LOVE working with horses! When I get out of college, I want to be a horse trainer. :) I almost got Riahs old Tennissee Walker, Belle, but that fell through so Im really happy about getting Secret. Jerry said he doesnt like Walkers, and yet he's getting one. I think its cuz I couldnt have Belle and he knows I'll train and ride both Secret and CoCoa.

Speaking of Riah...She's moving. As of now, she'll be 20 in april, lives at the end of my road with her parents, and is engaged. So after she gets married she's moving to some place 8 hours away from me. Shes more like my big sis than my best friend and it really hurts to lose her. We were talking on facebook last night. She said something about getting ready for the move. I asked her where she was going and she told me. It hurts that she didnt tell me sooner. I was texting her during skool today (yeah I'm a bad kid) and she said she thought I knew and said she was sorry. I know it sounds selfish, but I really really dont want her to move. Last September is when my other "sis" got mad at me and wont talk to me anymore, then October I lost my Grandpa to cancer, and now Im losing Riah. The worst part is, Riahs been here for me through the other losses, so to me losing her is like losing part of life. She's the one that stayed up until 1 am (when we both fell asleep) texting me after Grandpa died. She's the one that I trust more than anyone else. It feels like she's always been there for me, but its really been a year. I just cant believe Im losing her too...

I dont know whether to smile about Secret or cry about Riah...

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