I’m so annoyed with myself. I think that I dove into the diabetes thing too quickly and got information overload, and now I have lost my motivation. I have hardly been testing. I have been just eating whatever. I haven’t been keeping track of ANYTHING.
I am nearly finished with Gretchen’s book (it’s supposed to take a year and I read most of it in a week – probably part of the problem). I got 3/4 through Dr. Bernstein’s book and put it aside because I don’t think it is necessary for me to restrict my carbs that much, based on BG numbers.
But I haven’t lost weight (haven’t gained either), and I feel like I’m letting control slip away right when I was getting started.
I have the tendency to be a perfectionist. I have slight OCD. I think part of the problem is I have not found a really good solution for logging my food intake and BG together. I’ve been waiting for the perfect solution to come along and it has paralyzed me.
So I’m not sure what I’m going to do. If you have suggestions I would love to hear them. I have some ideas about what I should do. I’ll be thinking about it today and I may update later.
Oh, I also found out that I didn’t get pregnant this cycle, which kind of makes me sad. I bet poor control had something to do with it, as it was a medically managed cycle and had a good chance of working otherwise. Sigh…