Okay. It’s me–Judith in Portland. Ning is misbehaving tonight and I am trying to return home to TuD and I can’t because it is not receiving Profile pix—unless the Cosmic TuD is really pissed at me for exiting.
I sort of fell down the “rabbit hole”….waay down…I mean gasping for air waay down…withdrawing to safe places like my garden, my walks, acupuncture. Between the chronic pain of fibromyalgia and arthritis; the constant vigilance required to manage those plus the D plus two bad injuries in the last year—well, I couldn’t take it anymore. I found myself posting at TuD responses much too full of darkness and that is never what I want to bring to this beloved family that has sustained me through so much. So I just left. And now I know I need to come back.
It’s interesting isn’t it? Very few of us have sat together for a holiday meal—turkey or matzos or the breaking of a Ramadan fast or a solstice candle-lighting----and yet here we are at that time of year and I deeply miss my TuD family, so even though difficulties continue, I’m coming home where I belong. Forgive me, for any distress I may have caused. I will rebuild my page slowly (if Ning lets me) with some of what was there and some new.
I will bring back my journal of caring for my mom as she was dying at home of kidney failure because it would have been impossible to get thru that without all of you. And as much as I can of communing every year over Huck’s death and I think the Parallel Walking one. Blessings on us all…Loving you all…Judith in Portland……
TuD is resisting me returning as Judith in Portland, but I’ve got Emily on it, bless her heart, and I know she ill help me…xx000
Oh dear lovely Judith.....welcome back. We welcome your return with open arms. In times of despair, it is here you must venture...amongst friends.
You are loved my dear, and respected. This is your home.
♥
I must admit to feeling a sense of anxiety when I realized Judith in Portland was no longer a member of tuD. Is she OK? At some point I noticed that Elizabeth was providing the same voice of reason and tolerance formerly provided by Judith. When I went to her profile and saw Elizabeth was also from Portland my anxiety disappeared. I figured you had your reasons and left it at that.
I remember you as one of the most loved members here..and I have left a few times myself..and always come back.I am going to resist hitting that leave Tud. button from now on,cause I feel I can never really leave Tud. till there is a cure..will see...I remember you and am so glad you are back ..
I think Wendy makes a good point. I have always kept my profile active, but I stopped noncontributing for about 18 months while I did my dissertation. Of course now I am back and renewed and refreshed. Youa re such a vital part of us thanks for returning
I think a good number of us stay as long as we need, departing when necessary then returning home when ready. Isn't it so with most families? Good that absence makes the heart grow fonder!
As for darkness -- without it, the experience of lightness is cheap.
Thank you. Thank you everyone. I am so comforted and lifted up by your welcome.
I managed to come in as Elizabeth and simply change my profile name to Judith in Portland. Elizabeth was mostly a "lurker" since YaSureYaBetcha, after I left, it was just a few days before I realized I couldn't stand complete absence.
I've also managed to re-post some photos, but still haven't been able to change my profile shot. Emily's out of the office for a couple days, but I'm sure we'll figure it out. I'll try to recover a couple blogs next.
You have all made feel blessed, indeed.....Loving you all.....
Judith, Family is there in the good times and the bad times. Don't ever let the fear of causing any distress to keep you from sharing at whatever level you feel you need us to be there for you.
