hi everyone -
i feel like i should introduce myself, as i am new to this forum and the diabetes life as well. My name is Jessica/Jess - i’m 36 years old & i’m a mom to an almost 2 year old and wife to my husband of 9 years.
Since giving birth to my daughter, i have never in my life been so HOT & sweaty. 24 hours a day, for the last 2 years (almost). This winter (we live in NJ), we had the most snow in history and i wore a coat maybe 4 times. The falling snow felt like heaven on my hot skin.
I went to the doctor and told him about this situation & he did a full blood workup on me. Due to the sugar number and liver number, he sent me again for more blood.
It came back with a firm diabetes diagnosis - my A1C was 8.7.
I had GD when i was pregnant (diagnosed at 10) with my daughter and was able to control it with diet. I had to check my sugar 4 times a day and i will be honest - it was a living nightmare. It hurt and i just didn’t do well. In the end - i did it, because every single time i said, you’re doing this for HER. You don’t want to hurt HER (meaning my daughter). In the end of my pregnancy - when i knew full well she was perfect, i stopped pricking my finger, because i just mentally couldn’t do it anymore.
I had the above conversation with my doctor & my best friend & my husband were with me at the appointment. My friend Katie told the doctor point blank - it was like i was having an anxiety attack every time i had to do it. It truly was horrible. My doctor told me that my number is low enough that he doesn’t need me to test multiple times a day, etc. He said if it prevents anxiety attacks, then 1 time a day or 3 times per week is okay, so long as i’m in check as far as those numbers.
i am truly sorry this is so long, but this is the first time i’m feeling like i need real ‘help’. i’m going to meet with counsellors and nutritionists next week, but i know that real life people are an amazing help…which is why i’m pouring my heart out here…
other than the testing my sugar, my huge concern is diet. i am obese, i know this. i’m 230 pounds and i basically live on carbs. i have a VERY limited diet, as i’m a very picky eater. I can’t handle spices (ulcers) and i also have IBS-D - so my eating during the day tends to be spastic. if i’m having a meeting at 2:00 - i can’t eat lunch until after the meeting, so i don’t have to excuse myself from the meeting to use the bathroom.
i’m just at a loss…i’m worried about so much - but also worried about setting a good example for my daughter to follow. yes, she’s only 2, but her chances of having this are extreme, it’s on my husbands’ side of the family & HEAVILY in my family…
what do i do now? i know - meet with the counsellors, but i’m just so scared and worried…
i’m SO sorry this is so long…