It is mornings like this that can make or break your day, sometimes i get up full of aches and pains and often falling over as I get or try to get out of bed, being lightheaded when you stand up can be a real disaster waiting to happen many is the time I have just fallen over .
I suppose coming up to 63 you have to expect things like this, I look in the mirror each morning and see an old man staring back at me, all those times when I was young a teenager in my 20s 30s and 40s when i never gave it a second thought and here I am again looking at a stranger this is not how i see myself in my mind.
I am 23 years old chasing our 5 kids around the house playing scraggy monkey, catching the kids one by one and giving them a cuddle, these days I seldom see our kids from one day to the other yes life can be crueal at times, the wife often tells me the kids love you but htey have their own lives to lead families to raise and deep down somewhere in my heart I know that, but when yo have changed their nappies stayed up all night when they have been sick or could not sleep because there was a monster under the bed it is not easy to let go and let them go there own way.
As each son and daughter left home the saddness in my heart grew after 5 of your sons and daughters had left you would think you would be use to it, but if you are a parent perhaps you know how I felt pleased as punch that your offspring is venturing out into the big unknown but scarred to your toes nails they might falter and fall as we all do trying to stand on our own feet.
When our grand children were born we have 4 at the moment the candle in my heart that went out re-lit again but as one of our sons has tols me dad they are not your kids and we know better, really son when we had you we knew practically nothing but times change we change our outlook on life changes not always for the best.
So where am I going with this blog I think whatIam trying to say and not very good is you are given life sometimes its good sometimes it stinks but it's life the grass might be greener over the next hill but cut your own grass and you never know what you might find...........................Ramundow