This post is long overdue. This past year I have had very poor control with my diabetes. I guess I was just tired of living with this thing, this annoying pest of a disease, and I pretended that it didn’t exist. Well, I’m tired of feeling like crud. I’m tired of feeling horrible to the point that I can’t function right. It’s time to suit up for the battle for my life. If I don’t suit up now, I will be destroying and wasting a life that has so preciously been handed to me by Heavenly Father. I can do this! I can do this.
Yeah its really kinda of like a thorn in your side every day battle that you just gotta get use too. Dont die painfully…er it feels better to face it head on and were all here to suport you too!
Diabetes does suck but facing it and taking control helps me to feel in control and you will too…go getum :).
I hear you. I’m a born again diabetic. I wasn’t the WORST controlled patient in the world, but I have done some things that make me shiver when I think of them now. For the last couple of years I’ve been pretty aggressive and started working on the acceptance. I was losing the battle of wills with Diabetes. I was being led around by my nose by my lows. I read “Using Insulin” and that got me to carb counting. I taught myself carb counting and started calculating my doses. Now I’m on the Dexcom and the OmniPod. I feel a whole lot better, my control is pretty damn good and I was somewhat less depressed.
Once i stopped fighting and got out of denial, I was much better at this. This is a part of you and it is a demanding boss. But with a little practice, you can come to an understanding. When you grab the bull by the horns it does help when you feel you are in the driver’s seat.
This is the perfect place to rant, rave, and get advice. There’s a lot of practical knowledge here. There are a lot of really brilliant people around here. Everyone is really helpful. Reach out, someone will grab your hand.
Take it one day at a time. Work on it everyday and eventually you’ll realize how far you’ve come. Everyone has bad days, weeks and years. You’ll work with it instead of against it and you’ll start to feel so much better. A thought…write out how you’ve been feeling very detailed (wehn your both hight and low) and then you’ll be able to gage the change as it happends. When you have a bad day, you can flip back and see how far you’ve come.
I second Danny – it is totally possible keep a leash on pet Diabetes. And make him do tricks, even! Wishing you courage.
I went through a bad year myself back in late 2005-2006. Ended up in the ER with a blood sugar of 740. Well, my father was dying, and I used all my energy dealing with that, and just thought what the heck…I did not take my insulin for at least 7 months. I did not eat right, did not sleep right, did not test my blood sugar. Two days after his memorial service, I fell into a coma. My husband though I was just sleeping. When I returned to work, my co-workers found me with my head on my desk sleeping… off to the ER. I never want to feel that way again. It is too hard on the body! I went on an insulin pump, started to watch my blood sugars, and eating better. YOU CAN DO IT! HAVE FAITH!!! Remember God loves you, and will help give you strength.
Kailee, I SO know how you are feeling. I just posted a blog last night re-affirming my fight. It really helps to know we are not alone. We have this community and God to help us out, we just need to call on them!
Kailee. Hang in there. I had quite a few bad teen years but i have turned around many things since then. I think most diabetics have times when they are like this is too much to deal with. Those days i try to remember to take things one day at a time. There is days when things are higher than i want or had quite a few lows and if i give it my best shot then it was not as bad as doing nothing. Then there is those great days when the numbers were where i wanted. Keep working at it. You have a great number of friends here. Keep asking God for the strength.
thank you for all the comments, friends 
your kind words of support are pushing me along on these first few rough weeks of getting back under control