I have a daughter that's 3yrs old now. I had gestional diabetes when I was pregnant with her and it went away after having her, but a year and a bit after having her, I started having symptoms of type 1 diabetes. We were planning on trying for a second baby around the time of my diagnosis, but I decided to put it off until I got a handle of dealing with everything.
The thing is, I've been given the go-ahead to get pregnant again by my diabetes conselor and my doctor, but I just find myself either putting off or debating constantly whether to even have another baby.
I had a a really hard birth with my first because she was really big and due to other major complications during delivery, so I have that in the back of my mind. But also, I am fully aware that everything I eat and do (more seriously in the 1st trimester) affects my baby. It's going to be a completely different experience from my first, and I'm not sure if I want to even try it. I know what it's like to have diabetes in general, where my everyday decisions affect only me, but I don't think I could handle it if I knew that something I did while pregnant caused my baby to have a birth defect.
I'm having a hard time even wanting to be pregnant. Do I want a brother/sister for my daughter? Yes. Am I happing with my family? Yes too! My husband is super supportive of whatever decision I make, It's just so hard to decide. I think I know I don't want another child, I just don't want to regret my decision down the road because I could see myself changing my mind or even I just want some finality to my decision.
I think what I'm looking for is someone who's gone through what I have and just let me know what they have done.
Thanks in advance!