someone recently posted on reactions loved ones have when a d person has lows. yesterday i was at a meeting at work. we are a small company of about 150 but are spread out in centres across the city. we see people from other centres every week or couple of weeks for in-service days (we are teachers) and some of us are in a choir, which meets about three times a month after these in-service days and meeting.
yesterday i sat thru a meeting with about 20 other people talking exam preparation etc and i noticed that i was really not following/not able to concentrate. but i had taken my bs before the meeting started and it was 148, so thought, its not bs, its that im tired or whatever. ive been running low the last couple of days.
choir started 30 minutes later and i took my bs cuz i just felt "off" and to my surprise, i was quite low, 58, so i had 8 gr sugar and tried to sing, which was really hard. you cant carry a tune low, cant concentrate on a harmony, its really weird, cuz its just...singing!
it was one of those lows that knock you out, like you need your bed and only your bed (maybe cuz i dipped so fast?).i felt like leaving but had got there by bike and couldnt face the 20 minute cycle home. there were like eight of us there and i was asked by half the people there at different times if i was ok. everyone heard me say to the other people i was ok. i felt like i wanted to disappear! i just wanted everyone to keep singing and stop asking me if i was ok, bringing attention to others that i am a SICK PERSON!! (i dont see myself as sick but i know other people might).
it seems that these poor non ds cant get it right for us-theyre overly concerned or not concerned enough. i know my coworkers (and friends, they are lovely people) were only showing concern but i felt awful. and then i didnt want to leave because i felt like if i left they would all be talking about me and how pale/shaky/quiet i was! awkward!