It doesn’t have to be diabetes related, though it can definitely include.
Do you know how to overcome it?
How have you tried to cope?
Has this fear affected any other parts of your life?
I want children so badly that it hurts. I’m terrified of not being able to carry my own to full term- or if I do carry them, that they’ll be injured during my pregnancy because I have many surrounding issues with insulin resistance and rejections.
I’ll risk most anything to cure my D, but if it has a chance of hurting my ability to carry children in the future, I cancel that “cure” off my list.
For example, I’m not taking Lipitor because during the commercials on TV for Lipitor, it says that you must be on Lipitor forever, but it also warns about pregnancy while on Lipitor. So… I’ve opted to lower my cholesterol through diet and exercise instead.
This fear has affected my relationship with my fiance. I’ve wanted children since I was 17- I was not mentally prepared at that age. Now, nine and a half years since we started dating, I’m nearly aching from the desire to start a family of my own- but I know we’re just not ready.
It’s aggravating
diabetes realted: complications. and not being able to accomplish certain things.
i’ve tried to overcome it i guess by have a good a1c so far
also
when it would be really windy i would always think there was going to be a tornado and i would get blown away [yeah, weird i know, but i’m really little so it could probably happen! LOL]
roller coasters are another fear of mine, i hate them, i’m such a wimp when it comes to rides my stomach just cant hack it.
and i always have a fear of something traumatic happening to me or a loved one. i dont consider getting diabetes really traumatic, cuz i can still walk & talk, i am still normal, so i dont think of it like that
Marps!
you’re making me want to cry!
it makes me upset that there’s some people in this world that have kids, that dont even deserve it and aren’t even ready or responsible to have kids.
and that’s the only thing you want in this world!
i’m sure you will be able to have kids of your own! you deserve it!
not diabetes related,
i am afraid bugs. i used to not be afraid of them then all of a sudden i freak out when i see them. i will seriously stay out of the area where the bug is until it’s either killed or gone.
diabetes related,
i recently discovered i am afraid of giving myself shots. i had been taking shots for almost 19 years until last year in november when i got my pump and now i am affraid that if i have problems with my pump and i have to go back to shots i will cry because im affraid i’d do it wrong.
My biggest fear is being blind and old and alone in a nursing home. I am so terrified of relying on someone else to draw up my insulin and test me, etc. I almost want to say I hope that I die before that would happen.
I would not want my children or grandchildren to have the burden of caring for me either.
I will start a TU Home for all of us when we are old…we can help each other, at least we would all know how to test and dose insulin!!! lol.
Marps: You will have kids and they will be beautiful I know it.
Up until I had a daughter my biggest fear was being 30 or 40 something and having every possible complication from diabetes possible. Amputee, with kidney failure (on dialysis), blind, heart condition etc.
Now, I’m afraid I won’t live long enough or well enough to be there for my daughter (for the good and the bad). She’s on the floor looking at me right now and smiling, flashing her dimples and warming my heart. If something were to happen to her . . . I don’t even want to think about it.
Sorry for being a downer but we were getting ready to go to a wedding and we just found out that the bride’s brother had a 2 month girl who just died today, we still don’t know the cause.
Pavlos,
So very sorry.
my biggest fear is letting diabetes control my mood and emotions and as a result losing my girlfriend because of it. sometimes i feel like diabetes is making me push my loved ones away… dont know why or how to explain but the thought bothers me a lot
Non-diabetes: mice and other rodents; snakes; large roaches; growing old alone and dying alone and no one realizes that I have disappeared.
Diabetes: that my daughter might develop it.
Thanks Jade. I’m trying to be patient. It’s one of my biggest weaknesses. 
I’m a “want it now” “get it now” kinda girl, you know? haha
That would be perfect. I would love to actually get to meet all of you!
I wouldn’t want to have to put the burden of my health on someone else either- that’s why I don’t let others test me or inject me. I don’t want them to have to worry about it.
I don’t hide it, but I don’t exploit it either.
aw, I can totally relate. But, no fear! I was on the pump for two years, but went back to shots due to complications- it’s not too bad. I had to retrain for a few weeks, but I’m good at it now- maybe even better BG on the shots than I was on the pump- I know, weird
ugh, I just got chills. So scary…To think that something can happen like that to someone so innocent?
Thanks for the declaration on my thoughts- I hope with all my heart that you are right. You made me cry a little. I’m at work- damn you! Friggin emotional wreck about this.
You’re still really new at this. You’ll figure it out.
True story: I had a really close girl friend when I was in grade school through high school. When I was 14, I was diagnosed and for a few weeks the disease consumed my everything. That girl friend- I overheard her telling another one of my friends to “not get close to her, or you’ll catch it”. It turned out that she wasn’t a true friend after all.
If someone truly loves you, they will stick by you even when you feel like you can’t move. They will lift you up, help you examine your life for the positives, and will keep you sane when your life crumbles around you.
If they don’t do all of that, then they really don’t love you- and you deserve better anyway.
I hope that everything turns out well for you. Don’t worry so much! You’ll be okay, I promise.
(I read your other discussion, Marty)
I don’t know if this means anything, but I read somewhere (can’t remember where) that T1 skips a generation? I am clinging to that philosophy.
How do you live in Vegas and have this fear? haha.
I’ll read your blog and find out the mystery.
I’ve heard the same, but I think there are a lot of people on this site who can tell us that it does not.
I used to fear losing a loved one too. Imagine a thunderstorm and my fiance has to go out and get something dumb like milk- I would go with him, just down the street, because I was terrified of something bad happening to him in the five seconds that he was gone.
My BIGGEST fear is to throw up, really.
I have panic attacks that make me think i’m going to throw up, and i freak out. I get all nervous and frantic and i start begging my mom for zofran (medicine to stop throwing up or to prevent) like a addict.
I usually get these panic attacks when one of my close friends or family members throw up, and during flu season. In the fall after my diagnosis, i started having them whenever the above happened or my blood sugars went high (because how they go high when you start to get sick)
Everyday for atleast a month or so in my last period classs i would have a panic attack, go down to the office to check my blood sugar and usually call my mom. I went to my endo, and he logically tried to convince me that when i have the attacks i’m actually perfectly healthy and i’m just imagining it.
I almost whent to a phobia doctor, but i thankfully stopped.
I only have then every once and a while now, and they arent as bad as they used to be.
Diabetes related:
That i will pass it on to any of my children, grandchildren, etc and they will resent me for it or just them getting it at all.
Going into DKA or getting keytones, and passing out because of hypo. or hyper.