That’s a really good news story. Having diabetes is a heavy enough cross without also having poor or little vision.
yeah that happens to me every so often. i want to chuck all my stuff into the street and watch a truck run over them. 
Yeah. So I had a meltdown and got mended back to wholeness. People have asked me if I now feel stronger after having gone through such an ordeal. Yes, I guess I have. I sure wouldn’t wanna retrace those steps, but I could do it. I fret for days before my eye appointments, but that’s just part of the deal. I have much gratitude that I can see - see clearly!1
I can relate to this so much… I have been the annoying spouse so many times… I have had my own meltdowns too. late at night, when everybody is tired diabetes seem to be such a cruel stressor. 
I’ve had meltdowns like that but haven’t kept score because living 50+ years with this disease you lose track.
I was Type 1 for about 40 years and sitting in my eye doctor’s waiting room reading a women’s magazine. (Very poor selection of magazines there and all out of date. Sound familiar?) I already had my eyes dilated and I saw the word “diabetes” in an article. I squinted my eyes and finally was able to read the article. It said diabetics should eat a low carb diet. WHAT? No doctor ever told me that. I was diagnosed in 1945 and it was in the mid 1980’s I found that I should have been eating a low carb diet for the preceding 40 years. At my next appointment I asked my doctor why he had never told me that. He just sat there with a puzzled look on his face and finally asked “You did not know that?” I wanted to smack him. He had been my doctor since 1977 and I had been running much high sugar for 40 years while eating hundreds of carbs every day. All that my previous doctors had told my parents and me was that I should not eat sugar or food with a high sugar content. I restrained myself and left my doctor’s office that day feeling very angry at the world. That was definitely my breaking point!!! I started counting carbs that day and I determined my insulin:carb ratios by trial and error. My control began improving and kept on improving. My story has a good ending. I did not develop diabetes complications during those 40 years of not counting carbs. (Why, I’ll never know. Good genes, I suppose.) I have now had diabetes for 63 years and I am very healthy with an A1c of 5.6 and a pump. I am not mad at my doctor, he is by far the best I have ever had. All is well that ends well.
the days… that are not goign well.
I’m on vacation… while at disney in the crowds my tubing has gotten snagged, yanked on and all that… go to the other one about most annoying comment… I’m going to post a floozy
Cynthia:
Sorry to hear that your vacation is not going smoothly. I’ve started using the sticky patch called the IV-3000. I put in on after inserting the quickset and before hooking up the tubing. It helps to prevent pulling the cannula out. Doesn’t totally prevent it, but it helps. AND it’s mild on the skin so I don’t tear a layer of skin off in the process.
I don’t recall flipping out and yelling or screaming. I just kind of get depressed and cry a lot. I’ve always been taught that it doesn’t pay to show how hurt you are.
Lois La Rose
Hi Richard,
Don’t feel bad about what we didn’t know years ago remember they were the “dark ages”. I’ll give you a better story I didn’t know about carb counting until the 1990s in fact it was 1998 that I learned about carb counting.
Dear Richard.
Your story is heart warming and really glad you are doing so well. My endo told me 10 years ago that I did not want to touch insulin with a ten foot pole. well now I have to inject more than 100 units per day. Really bad advice.
Anthony, I cannot imagine why an endo did not want you to use insulin. There must have been some reason. I asume the delay has caused you to have to use such large doses now. I know there are many people who use large doses. Are you using a pump? Very often pumping can reduce the amount of insulin needed and give much better control. I have heard of instances where pumping has caused dosages to be reduced by 50%. Maybe you should consider using a pump if you are not already doing so. Good luck to you!
I know some Type 1s who are insulin resistant and have to use lots of insulin. Today they are finding out that some of us have resistence because of genetics.
Yes Betty there are more and more Type 1’s having that problem. In the early 1990’s I started using Humalog and I gained 57 pounds by 1996 or so. I was diagnosed with insulin resistance but did not know that it was indirectly caused by the Humalog until a few years later. I started taking Avandia in 1999 and my resistance was under good control. I have reduced my carb intake to 130g per day and I walk one hour each day at a fast pace. I have lost 26 pounds and I have good control with my pump. I will always have the resistance. A Type 1 with insulin resistance is called a “double diabetic”.
Cynthia:
Look at these as an alternative. I find them so much better than IV 3000 more sticky, just as mild. Look at the transparent film line on the following page. I would not give two hoots for for their barrier prep, but these bandages are very very good.
Rick
This is not bad Renee it is much preferable to take a bit of insulin to keep the pancreas alive as long as possible and according to Dr. Bernstein indefinitely. An ounce of prevention in this case is worth a tonne of cure later on. This makes the diabetes a mangeable disease. If you let his pancreas die and he is also insulin resistant this will be your worst nightmare come true.
i shut down when i moved to philly about 7 months ago. having lived in southern california for nearly all of my life, it was so difficult to adjust to everything-- not having a car, not knowing where anything is, having to find & see new docs, new workplace/environment, even the food here is different! i didn’t throw a fit or anything…when i get stressed, i just shut down and that’s what i did in this case.
i got back on track because i made an appointment with a new endo and she’s going to ask for my logs & how i’m doing. well, i can’t show up with fake/non-existent records! ayyy i want to kick myself.
I was told when I was young that I was insulin resistant of course I didn’t understand but I have discovered I’m not resistant nor am I BRITTLE. Years ago I had a dr. who was a GP who specialized in Diabetes, with what they knew then we were given all type of names. That’s why I refer to years ago as the “dark ages”.
I had a bad winter, I was sick the entire time so my blood sugar raged out of control most the time…Well, I had to go to the dentist because I was having some tooth pain. He said that high blood sugar will erode my gum line and I can get gum disease and cavities and sooner rather than later, with out of control blood sugar, I will start to lose my teeth.
I wasn’t aware of any of this and sure enough, I had some cavities and a pretty nasty one at that (I’ve ALWAYS taken very good care of my teeth) and when I heard that I could start losing my teeth, I lost it. I’ve only been type 1 a year and half and never cried over it, never let myself get down…but this, I couldn’t handle. I cried in front of my dentist (I’m not a big crier…at least not in front of people) then I cried in front of my husband all the way home and cried some more until I finally fell asleep later that night.
I hear you. My Lantus also makes me yelp sometimes! It DOES really hurt - and it’s about 50% of the time, so I’m always tense about it.
i can’t even take it in my arms…forget that!!..i don’t think there is enough fat there-but i can take my novolog in my arms. it sucks!!