I went on a big run today and it was awesome. Two hours, in the mountains, all by myself. So nice. Had my iPod on, playing tunes the whole time. It’s my way of getting away. Getting away from it all. I know there are lots of folks out there who would say, “What, you’re a type 1 diabetic, and you went running in the high mountains for two hours, by yourself, in the opposite direction of civilization?” Yes, that’s exactly what I did.
I don’t write about diabetes a lot on this blog. And that’s probably not helping me achieve one of my primary goals in establishing this blog, that of inspiring other diabetics. But, to put it mildly, I hate diabetes. I hate, hate, hate it! The one relationship that I can never get out of. The one bedmate that I can never break up with. The one bad friend that I can never say good-bye to. And that drives me crazy. Diabetes is with me ALL the time, it consumes me and dictates everything I do. And so that’s part of the reason I don’t write about it, even though I call this a “diabetic” blog.
There are so many awesome diabetic blogs out there today, and I read a lot of them. Very cool. When I was diagnosed with the ‘betes, there was so little information out there. I didn’t know anything, that’s for sure. My doctors didn’t know anything, that’s even more sure. And it was really hard to find information, stuff that was relevant to me, not some overweight 62 year old that hasn’t exercised in 50 years, and eats chocolate cake on a regular basis. That’s Type 2, and that will never be me. But that’s what the docs diagnosed me as in the beginning. Type 2, are you f**king kidding me? I didn’t take insulin for two years, as a Type 1. I am honestly not sure why I’m alive.
Sorry, little rant there. But that’s not why I started this post. I started this post because I wanted to explain a little how I feel about diabetes, and why I do what I do. Because diabetes is always with me. That is the reason, there’s the rub. I go on two hour runs because it’s the only time I forget about everything in my life. All the painful stuff, the credit cards, the lack of income and why isn’t my business exploding, the ■■■■■■ break-ups, the lack of stability in my life.
Yeah, I do long runs and rides, and then write about them, cause it helps me deal.
I do care about diabetes. I really, really do want to help. I started this blog because I want to inspire. Kids and young adults out there, don’t let the ‘betes stop you from doing anything, cause you are bigger than it. You can do it, diabetes or not.
So that’s why I run, and ski, and ride, and write about all that stuff here, because I can. I can do it, and so can you, and I hope to inspire you to do so.
As always, thanks for reading and let me know what you think, or how I can help.