I've heard this question numerious times. "If you could get rid of your diabetes, would you?"
I've dreamed of a day that I wouldn't have to take shots, test all day, not worry about what I eat or drink, not worry about complications. Hopefully, someday this will happen - I feel we are close and it's almost an unbearable wait.
And people say, diabetes does not define you - you have a disease - it does NOT have you - you all know the routine. But, as I ponder the "what ifs" of a life without diabetes, I hesitate as I answer.
Now, I'm not crazy - I'd love nothing more than to chunk all of my lancets, syringes, strips, machines and chalky glucose tabs into the nearest landfill and dance around the fire that consumes them. Hell, I may wear a ceromonial robe when I do it! At the same time, I have been diabetic for so long, I almost feel like a part of my identity would be gone.
It's hard for me to contemplate who I would be if I weren't diabetic, just as hard as it would be for me to contemplate not being a fine Black woman - it is just who I am. :) Does this sound crazy? If so, maybe I am running high and just need some Humalog, I don't know. But, it is still something that crosses my mind.