I had a little bit of hope after leaving treatment. My diabetes was in the best control that it has ever been. And the neuropathy seemed to be getting better (even though I was at the very beginning of it). I felt good, I was positive and wanted good numbers. It was what I strived for every day.
A few weeks ago, the pain started in my legs and the tingling feeling in my hands and feet. My doctor said it could be other things, but most likely it is related to the diabetes. Yesterday, I got more bad news when I went to the eye doctor. I'm starting diabetic retinopathy. Talk about a low blow. Two things that are really important to me are that I can see and walk and I'm jeapordizing both of these by not doing what I am supposed to. I can blame the eating disorder all I want, but at the end of the day it's just me. I have to be the one to make good decisions and want to be healthy.
So, for today, I'm trying to stay on track because I don't need anymore complications. Heck, I'm only 24. I would like to live to for awhile and live well, but I fear I may be alive and facing many complications. How did I let it get this bad?