Hi all. Every one here, my grand friends on tud, know that I have been through a couple of really tough years, with the death of my Father in April 2012, at 53 from Alzheimer's complications; and the sudden death from cardiac arrest of my brother less than a year later in April 2013. We were so saddened and devastated. I had to go to my home town several states away somewhat frequently to help take care of my family and to comfort, to console and just be with them.
What most of you did not know
is that I put a lot of my own diabetic care on the back burner at that time. I was grieving and running away, a lot from my own emotions.
Had all the behaviors and symptoms of diabetes burn-out due to stress and long-time mid-set of "I do not want to do ALL of this to take care of my diabetes,Just enough..
to get by without getting really sick. I took my insulin a bolussed,
but went through weeks of not checking my blood sugars but 2-3 times a
day, particularly when I was with my family out of state>. I did
Multiple blind bolusses and highs over 200 every other day;low- lows at least 2 times a week. I would eat starchy snacks and rage bolus and extra exercise to stave off a high, end up low and on the
roller coaster again. I walked some mornings, but sometimes was just too lazy and distracted by grief, trying to get 100's of projects
contacts, and conversations completedto keep up the habit of daily exercise,
My Aic's understandably took a hit. I havn't seen a 6 since December 2011. Gradualky creeping to 7.4 to 7.6 (for 6 months) to 7.8 and last week ( Tuesday) was 8.0!!! Not a surpise because I did check enough to know where I was heading.. but I decided that very day, to STOP it and get off the Meery g0-round and take care of myself. Not found of actual
roller-coasters nor BG ones.
My doctor told me, in his laid back and kindly manner" You know what to do , Brunetta. You know how to do it. You wanto be there for your family. understand how it is so hard to manage this and how to accept that this illness is just that. It is an illness and hard to accept that it is a forever sickness. we all want to be healthy and not have to do So very much. No one wants to have to work this hard to be healthy.But You can do it,I have seen you do it..">
I thanked him for his encouragement and not trying to shame me. He has been my endo for over 12 years, and those are two of the traits I like so much about him: compassion paired with competence
I am proud to say that accept for an expected ripped out in fusion set Saturday night and an arising BG of 365, whichI lowered by injection.
Good results since I have changed my ways.. I have not been over 147 in 6 days!!I had only 4 lows in 6 days...I had a chip craving which I forstalled with celery and peppers dipped in cheese, not a whole bag of Puffcorn Delites. Instead of watching recorded episodes of Scandal and the Bold and the beautiful at night, I run up and down the basement steps to the kitchen. have also started brisk walking 3 times a day around the neighborhood and on my lunch breaks when away from home, just for 10 minutes. >
I will not have an A1c of 8.0!! I am feeling really energetic and clear-headed, just from < 6 days of being away from the Diabetic thrill ride park. Feet still a tad tingly, but that will pass with more stable blood glucoses.
I purchased an Android smartphone in July and am still learning it.
I like the apps and the very precise and sharp camera, but since I am a technology immigrant for whom HIGH tech is not a native tongue.
I am only somewhat fluent;I will not ask you how to post the picture of the past 2 days of the picture of the slightly rolling flat lines on the CGM display, but I am proud of them
Just wanted to let every one who may be having months or a year of a time not in the best control, that you can get it back...