(((((((((((huge))))))))))))) I don’t believe thee is one diabetic in the world who hasn’t felt like you’re feeling, I’m pretty sure we’ve all of us acted out on it too to some degree!
I’m not condoning blowing it all off because I’d hate to think of you making yourself ill and I hope that doesn’t seem like I’m lecturing you, honestly I’m not. Like Marie B said YOU can turn it round honey.
Just one positive, albeit grimace inducing baby step after the other.
Prick that finger, even though it’s everything you don’t want to do, perhaps that one little action might help just a little because you are doing something positive towards nailing this b*tch of a condition, perhaps putting that speck of blood on the strip might help, because it’s a step in the right direction, despite the result, whatever it is, perhaps the next bolus might help because you’re taking control, hopefully the sugars will come down and you’ll feel a bit less crappy and you’re doing one more little thing to change the way you’re feeling!!
It’s like that film with bill murray (what about bob) Its all about baby steps, I promise if anything came across bad it wasn’t meant to upset you, umm, basically it’s advice from a recovering burn-out who lapses more often than she should. You aren’t an idiot, you’re struggling, you’re not a farce or a sham, you’re trying to escape. Everyone’s a mess, no matter how together they seem and you only need to be good for you, or at the very least not so hard on yourself.
Hope the sleep helps x