I should be happy but I am definitely struggling!!
Let me share a bit about my dilemma - I quit smoking in July of 2010 - whoo hoo. Then went on to gain about 50 extra pounds (I was already obese).
In November 2010 had an attack of Vertigo which led the Doctors to request blood work and found out I had T2 in January, as well as turning 50. I am lactose intolerant as well as gluten sensitive. My A1 was 7.2 and the doctors wanted to control by diet and exercise. My guilt was through the roof - I probably had brought this on by my misuse of this my life (gift from God). Then the analytical mind kicked in and search and study began - I found this site as well as many more helpful sights to help me with my ignorance of this disease. Wow so much to learn – perhaps a lifetime.
The biggest thing I learned was to test test and test some more so you can learn what is going on – and perhaps save my insulin producing pancreas. I have been doing this and in the meantime driving my family crazy as well as my doctors. I believe they think that I must have an obsession to poke myself.
Well just got my new A1 back and it is 6.9 so I am very happy that I am going in the right direction with diet. The exercise has not been as easy as I am still suffering vertigo almost daily and often it is just hard to get to work and put in some kind of productive day at work. My doctor’s response to my new A1 was to tell me that I didn’t need to continue to poke myself as often as I was on the right track. (3 months and I guess he thinks that I have learned all I can).
I have had a very rollercoaster ride from diagnosis to today. I used to only visit the doctor perhaps 3 to 4 times per year and I have already racked up at least a weekly visit with all the issues I am now facing. I had one episode where for two weeks I was feeling weak and shaky in the late morning after breakfast and before lunch but my sugar seemed to test fine (4.4) and there didn’t seem to be any reason, for the problem – the doctor told me I was just anxious and depressed and passed me a prescription for something to calm me down. I later found out by research that I was my body was reacting as if hypoglycemic probably due to the fact that my sugars were coming down. It was a hell of a time and so so negative instead of a positive experience if my doctor had told me what was going on instead.
Most of the time just feel guilty that I am tired of feeling sick and tired when so many people are suffering with so many terminal/painful diseases.
Today when talking to my sister she told me that the doctor is probably right and I shouldn’t poke myself so often to just relax. She related it to weighing yourself all the time, and that this doesn’t help anyone to lose weight. I am just so hurt and feel like perhaps that I am just a poke addict and that all that testing is just a waste of time – but then again how can they explain my quick results. All I have done today is cry – how could my only sister not support me in my way to a healthier life and ignore the serious problems which could occur if I don’t manage my diabetes.
Sorry for my rant – cry baby, cry baby.